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2012-01-14T13:35:00.002+08:00

Hey! Just randomly uploading pictures! lolx..

I AM ALvin the chipmunk haha...

Cuz i bought red

Jing bought Green n Sisi bought Blue!

We are the chipmunk sisters!

*okay ... i shall stop all the craps...

well.. went shopping with my 2 darlings ytd and i bought..

A dress

A kitty glasses

A jacket

A belt

And

A HairBand

HEHE...

we bought the same jacket but in different colours

we bought the same frame as well...

so long nvr meet them le... =) so happy ^.^

well.. that few hours nt enough for us de luh! haha

WE NEED A WHOLE DAY...

Misses to the MAX!

2012-01-09T08:29:00.002+08:00

CNY is coming!!! lolx.. i wanna go shopping ... i wanna go Chinatown walk walk... i wanna do alot of things... ...

sometimes i feel that having a blog updates ppl abt me? well.. i somehow felt pressured when i see the text cuz it seems like i still hav to update exactly? of cus ur loved ones will help u and tell me to go back after a short break.... but who exactly hav understood what i felt?

nvm... i hav been used to it though... but so what if i fell for someone else ? why must you care too? i should hav just go into another relationship?

.... whatever!

2012-01-07T07:08:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... Time flies.... its a new year already and work has been tiring lolx.. maybe becoz of the too many holidays during x mas n new year... plus its gonna be CNY soon...

i have been having mixed feelings for quite some time already... welll its a new year and i seriously wished that everything will turn out fine for me...

haix...

2011-12-29T20:55:00.002+08:00

I happen to visit a friend's friend's blog... lolx.. it sounds far but well haha... it just happened... although it didnt really linked to me directly but when i read her blog... i teared... like suddenly felt so sad ...

But what she said was pretty true... and i should say we girls are always the stupid ones... and somehow we often let our feelings brings us to where we go and then end up being the stupid girl ... lolx.. i somehow am leading myself to somewhere i really could not see the future anymore...

Someone once told me to just look at what we hav now and treasure what we hav... look at the present and appreciate whats given... then reach out to try n catch the future but dun be too hard on yourself ... cuz if u cant catch it... do let go and move on...

I really like listening to songs that express how i really felt in my heart cuz somehow it seems like another person knows how i feel... "well atleast the one singing it" *sounds stupid again hahaha

Well... i would really wanna treasure what i have now... appreciates the present and try n catch the future if i could... and i promise i wont be too hard on myself...

Smile.. Smile n Just Smile cuz A smile can makes you and the people around you feels happier ^.^

Merry Christmas and a Happy New year!

2011-12-29T20:35:00.002+08:00

Gosh... I think i am falling in...

DOOOOOm..... lolx.. did you hear the sound of something falling into the pond/river/water?

Hmmm.... there is nth much i can say here actually due to some restrictions... well...

i guess my best friend is my diary now ^.^

2011-12-27T11:35:00.001+08:00

I was Just thinking how my life would be in year 2012...

but i tink i love my smile =) so i should smile more! ^.^

2011-12-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

i am sorry, i really am...
But i really cannot take it anymore... i know it is really hurtful for u... but please move on...
i still care for you but it really doesnt includes anymore love...

please drive carefully n be safe...

all i need is just a peaceful peaceful life... it is nt your fault... eventhough your family members are siding you and they really really are the only ones who will stay by your side no matter what happens... i am just a normal person who really will not u- turn into this relationship anymore...

i spoke to your 2nd sis and i can see that everyone is very concern about you... please do not let them worry... you are still young and you will find the right person for you...

Honestly speaking ... i have tried... when u come back for me... sometimes at night i will think n think but really really couldnt bring myself to do it... i am cruel to you i know... but i dun wann giv u false hope ...

2 outcomes...

1) i stay by yourside without love n i feel terrible.
2) you move on and we try to find our own happiness in the future...

Which one do you want?

time will heal everything... please hate me for all you want but move on...
6 years of relationship i know it is really difficult... even i also dunno how i manage to just let go with in one month...

i am nt a good girlfriend and i will not be your good girlfriend... its not anyone of us in the wrong but just our character really nt suitable to be tgt...

Thanks for putting in so much effort in trying to pull this relationship back... Thank you...

we will just be friends... really... just normal friends...

2011-12-22T08:13:00.002+08:00

Can you Please stop behaving like this ?!?!?!
Arg...

i am going to change my phone number n my change my FB account if you continue to be like this... i dun feel that i am single at all... ZZZ...

Why send me happy anniversary when we r no longer tgt...
but anyway i will nt reply to any of your calls or msg anymore... until you get over everything... until we can really just be friends...

2011-12-21T07:40:00.002+08:00

It will never be the same... things that you have done to bring happiness and hatred...
and moreover things that were hurtful were so much... n bad...

the experience i have gain... the lessons i have learnt...
Thank you

2011-12-20T08:01:00.002+08:00

WOW~~~

Its been so so so long since i updated here... and i can see the THICK THICK layer of dust here...
My life has been pretty happening lately n it is driving me crazy!...

Firstly, i just wanna share that i am officially single =) which to me i really felt that it is a good thing cuz i felt so relax after breaking up... but after that weeks of freedom comes a scary nightmare and somehow it is affectly my life...

I really do not understand how all these can happen... At first He wanted to settle down n then he decided nt to... and then he wants to try ... bla bla bla... i cant see any future at all... and the only memories that were bugging me were those that were really hurtful... All these while... i believe we had already given each other enough time and chance to learn n grow up.... but well... i really really really dun see how r we gonna move on...

I am sorry if the decision of mine is gonna hurt you...
I believe you can survive n live even better without me... it just takes time...

I knew i would nt regret becoz i have already gave in my fullest and I really did tried my best in this relationship ...

Now that it is over, please move on ... i still wish u all the best in everything you do ... but to every other woman u meet... please be nice to them...

I am sorry... I really wanna end this.

2011-11-22T16:45:00.000+08:00

It doesn't matter where you go in life what you do or how much you have, it's who you have beside you...

i think i really start to like this sentence =)

2011-09-25T17:04:00.002+08:00

I couldn't remember when was the last time i visited my blog to view but i guess no one was here since then too =)

I once thought i would like to end this blog becoz it seems like its nothing much anyway but well... i thought again... just leave it ba...
Now... its the time when i need my blog back again... i need a place to express myself... and a place i am familier with which will be here =)

Recently have quite a number of tough decisions to make... and i really do not know i will regret or not... but i guess... no point thinking becoz if i will i will...

went for driving again today... and after driving i went over to outram to meet ben for his fav chicken rice over there... zzz... and we were talking and chatting... about the future... his future and my future... and we seem to have different stand... he asked me what if at the age when i wants to settle down and he still doesnt... will i still stay by him? he asked afew other question somewhat just related to this... ytd...

i really do not know the answer... and honestly speaking i really do not know what had happen that lead us to now... we are on our own ways... as friends....
we didnt fight or quarrel, we just smile and waved goodbye...

all the emotions started flowing to my mind... but yet i didnt tear... i felt my heart tearing ... i know he is too... but we didnt show...

i suppose if we r meant to be tgt we will... this long relationship really keeps me wondering... wow... what a long journey... and now... we have all grown up ...

move on vivian... smile... =)

2011-05-17T23:19:00.002+08:00

LOLX
i realise i put the wrong personality test results lolx.. mine is ENFJ not ESFJ

As an ENFJ, you're primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

ENFJs are people-focused individuals. They live in the world of people possibilities. More so than any other type, they have excellent people skills. They understand and care about people, and have a special talent for bringing out the best in others. ENFJ's main interest in life is giving love, support, and a good time to other people. They are focused on understanding, supporting, and encouraging others. They make things happen for people, and get their best personal satisfaction from this.

Because ENFJ's people skills are so extraordinary, they have the ability to make people do exactly what they want them to do. They get under people's skins and get the reactions that they are seeking. ENFJ's motives are usually unselfish, but ENFJs who have developed less than ideally have been known to use their power over people to manipulate them.

ENFJ's are so externally focused that it's especially important for them to spend time alone. This can be difficult for some ENFJs, because they have the tendency to be hard on themselves and turn to dark thoughts when alone. Consequently, ENFJs might avoid being alone, and fill their lives with activities involving other people. ENFJs tend to define their life's direction and priorities according to other people's needs, and may not be aware of their own needs. It's natural to their personality type that they will tend to place other people's needs above their own, but they need to stay aware of their own needs so that they don't sacrifice themselves in their drive to help others.

ENFJ's tend to be more reserved about exposing themselves than other extraverted types. Although they may have strongly-felt beliefs, they're likely to refrain from expressing them if doing so would interfere with bringing out the best in others. Because their strongest interest lies in being a catalyst of change in other people, they're likely to interact with others on their own level, in a chameleon-like manner, rather than as individuals.

Which is not to say that the ENFJ does not have opinions. ENFJs have definite values and opinions which they're able to express clearly and succinctly. These beliefs will be expressed as long as they're not too personal. ENFJ is in many ways expressive and open, but is more focused on being responsive and supportive of others. When faced with a conflict between a strongly-held value and serving another person's need, they are highly likely to value the other person's needs.

The ENFJ may feel quite lonely even when surrounded by people. This feeling of aloneness may be exacerbated by the tendency to not reveal their true selves.

People love ENFJs. They are fun to be with, and truly understand and love people. They are typically very straight-forward and honest. Usually ENFJs exude a lot of self-confidence, and have a great amount of ability to do many different things. They are generally bright, full of potential, energetic and fast-paced. They are usually good at anything which captures their interest.

ENFJs like for things to be well-organized, and will work hard at maintaining structure and resolving ambiguity. They have a tendency to be fussy, especially with their home environments.

In the work place, ENFJs do well in positions where they deal with people. They are naturals for the social committee. Their uncanny ability to understand people and say just what needs to be said to make them happy makes them naturals for counseling. They enjoy being the center of attention, and do very well in situations where they can inspire and lead others, such as teaching.

ENFJs do not like dealing with impersonal reasoning. They don't understand or appreciate its merit, and will be unhappy in situations where they're forced to deal with logic and facts without any connection to a human element. Living in the world of people possibilities, they enjoy their plans more than their achievements. They get excited about possibilities for the future, but may become easily bored and restless with the present.

ENFJs have a special gift with people, and are basically happy people when they can use that gift to help others. They get their best satisfaction from serving others. Their genuine interest in Humankind and their exceptional intuitive awareness of people makes them able to draw out even the most reserved individuals.

ENFJs have a strong need for close, intimate relationships, and will put forth a lot of effort in creating and maintaining these relationships. They're very loyal and trustworthy once involved in a relationship.

An ENFJ who has not developed their Feeling side may have difficulty making good decisions, and may rely heavily on other people in decision-making processes. If they have not developed their Intuition, they may not be able to see possibilities, and will judge things too quickly based on established value systems or social rules, without really understanding the current situation. An ENFJ who has not found their place in the world is likely to be extremely sensitive to criticism, and to have the tendency to worry excessively and feel guilty. They are also likely to be very manipulative and controling with others.

In general, ENFJs are charming, warm, gracious, creative and diverse individuals with richly developed insights into what makes other people tick. This special ability to see growth potential in others combined with a genuine drive to help people makes the ENFJ a truly valued individual. As giving and caring as the ENFJ is, they need to remember to value their own needs as well as the needs of others.

... how true is it? you judge lolx...

but previously i on ESFJ... i think i can read people real well lolx.. =P

i think this is very true wor! =D

2011-05-16T00:42:00.000+08:00

Recently, i have done a personality test... =)
And some parts are really true about me... lolx..
and i think after reading it... i sound abit cunning.. haha...
zzz

I AM ESFJ!

As an ESFJ, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit in with your personal value system. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion.

ESFJs are people persons - they love people. They are warmly interested in others. They use their Sensing and Judging characteristics to gather specific, detailed information about others, and turn this information into supportive judgments. They want to like people, and have a special skill at bringing out the best in others. They are extremely good at reading others, and understanding their point of view. The ESFJ's strong desire to be liked and for everything to be pleasant makes them highly supportive of others. People like to be around ESFJs, because the ESFJ has a special gift of invariably making people feel good about themselves.

The ESFJ takes their responsibilities very seriously, and is very dependable. They value security and stability, and have a strong focus on the details of life. They see before others do what needs to be done, and do whatever it takes to make sure that it gets done. They enjoy these types of tasks, and are extremely good at them.

ESFJs are warm and energetic. They need approval from others to feel good about themselves. They are hurt by indifference and don't understand unkindness. They are very giving people, who get a lot of their personal satisfaction from the happiness of others. They want to be appreciated for who they are, and what they give. They're very sensitive to others, and freely give practical care. ESFJs are such caring individuals, that they sometimes have a hard time seeing or accepting a difficult truth about someone they care about.

With Extraverted Feeling dominating their personality, ESFJs are focused on reading other people. They have a strong need to be liked, and to be in control. They are extremely good at reading others, and often change their own manner to be more pleasing to whoever they're with at the moment.

The ESFJ's value system is defined externally. They usually have very well-formed ideas about the way things should be, and are not shy about expressing these opinions. However, they weigh their values and morals against the world around them, rather than against an internal value system. They may have a strong moral code, but it is defined by the community that they live in, rather than by any strongly felt internal values.

ESFJs who have had the benefit of being raised and surrounded by a strong value system that is ethical and centered around genuine goodness will most likely be the kindest, most generous souls who will gladly give you the shirt off of their back without a second thought. For these individuals, the selfless quality of their personality type is genuine and pure. ESFJs who have not had the advantage of developing their own values by weighing them against a good external value system may develop very questionable values. In such cases, the ESFJ most often genuinely believes in the integrity of their skewed value system. They have no internal understanding of values to set them straight. In weighing their values against our society, they find plenty of support for whatever moral transgression they wish to justify. This type of ESFJ is a dangerous person indeed. Extraverted Feeling drives them to control and manipulate, and their lack of Intuition prevents them from seeing the big picture. They're usually quite popular and good with people, and good at manipulating them. Unlike their ENFJ cousin, they don't have Intuition to help them understand the real consequences of their actions. They are driven to manipulate other to achieve their own ends, yet they believe that they are following a solid moral code of conduct.

All ESFJs have a natural tendency to want to control their environment. Their dominant function demands structure and organization, and seeks closure. ESFJs are most comfortable with structured environments. They're not likely to enjoy having to do things which involve abstract, theoretical concepts, or impersonal analysis. They do enjoy creating order and structure, and are very good at tasks which require these kinds of skills. ESFJs should be careful about controling people in their lives who do not wish to be controlled.

ESFJs respect and believe in the laws and rules of authority, and believe that others should do so as well. They're traditional, and prefer to do things in the established way, rather than venturing into unchartered territory. Their need for security drives their ready acceptance and adherence to the policies of the established system. This tendency may cause them to sometimes blindly accept rules without questioning or understanding them.

An ESFJ who has developed in a less than ideal way may be prone to being quite insecure, and focus all of their attention on pleasing others. He or she might also be very controling, or overly sensitive, imagining bad intentions when there weren't any.

ESFJs incorporate many of the traits that are associated with women in our society. However, male ESFJs will usually not appear feminine at all. On the contrary, ESFJs are typically quite conscious about gender roles and will be most comfortable playing a role that suits their gender in our society. Male ESFJs will be quite masculine (albeit sensitive when you get to know them), and female ESFJs will be very feminine.

ESFJs at their best are warm, sympathetic, helpful, cooperative, tactful, down-to-earth, practical, thorough, consistent, organized, enthusiastic, and energetic. They enjoy tradition and security, and will seek stable lives that are rich in contact with friends and family.

All the highlighted in red are pretty true .... lolx...

2011-05-06T00:27:00.001+08:00

WOW! my Home has a new fridge now! lolx..
although it is very very expensive! but i really miss my fridge where i can open and take ice from inside haha!!! bleah!=P

2011-04-24T01:33:00.002+08:00

明知道愛情並不牢靠但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢但是我還是相信只是煎熬
不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑.

明知道這不是緣分但是我還奮不顧身
可能在愛裡面這樣算笨
可能永遠沒有所謂永恆
但是我不願放棄這裡面一點點可能寧願笨也不想要悔恨

2011-04-23T00:35:00.002+08:00

Feeling real troubled these days...

Thank you deardear for bringing me out to destress..!

Its double date with Rong =) loves!

Sometimes i really could not express myself clearly...
vocab too little or my expression has got some problem...
haix...

2011-04-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

After one topic another comes...

Isn't life like that?

Watched RIO the movie.. the angry bird show! lolx.. it was really a very funny show haha!
N touching too!
Somehow, like what dear said, it talked about some philosophical thoughts too... worth watching!

Certain sacrifices have to be made in life =) but whatever it is... i do still believe fate alot!
lolx... =P

2011-03-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, it is not whose fault... suddenly i felt that the more we talk... the more we communicate i really feel that things are becoming worse... i'm so tired...

If we want to make things happen first, we have to have the same goal...
the thing is, i really cannot feel that...
being committed isn't enough de...

How can i make you understand how i feel ne?
If u understand le, what will happen ne? just understanding only ma?
What changes will you be making?

our thoughts are always different... in 100 things... we have 99 different...
things that i feel that is very important, eventhough u know that but i just dun see certain sacrifice made there...

I realize i have reached a stage that i really do not wish to compromise le...
I feel tat if i do.... it will only lead to too much pain...

I really dun know wat to do... ='(

2011-03-26T22:26:00.002+08:00

Life is so unpredictable... people around us are facing the challenge of disasters...

I ask myself every time... why...
in life, in order to save something... some people have to sacrifice...
Becoz of the word love...

I love therefore i kept quiet,
I love therefore i smiled,
I love therefore i stayed away...

=) as long as i know that's best for you =)
There are alot of things i wan to say but dunno how to phrase it...
i dun wish to hurt anyone...
I wan you to be happy too...
SMILE! =)

2011-03-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

=) ^.^ *.* >.< =] =P ^.*

2011-03-16T18:27:00.002+08:00

Saw something interesting today in my school...

To realize the value of one year,

ask a student who has failed his exam.

To realize the value of one month,

ask a mother who has given birth to a premature.

To realise the value of one week,

ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realise the value of oneday,

ask a daily wage labouror who has ten kid to feed.

To realize the value of one hour,

ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize the value of one minute,

ask a person who has missed the train.

To realize the value of one second,

ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize the value of one milli-second,

ask a person who has won a silver medal at the olympics.

VAlUE EVerY mOMENT That YoU HaVE

Time is a coin that you can spend only once... =)

2011-03-14T22:37:00.004+08:00

>.< I'm feeling so down these days... just do not know what to do and what i should do...
at every stage of life, there is always something i cannot settle... haix... there are certain things that it is just pressuring me and i do not know why... sometimes, i just feel like leaving this world so that troubles can be freed from me... ... ... *i know i'm just talking rubbish*

Silently i cried, knowing that there is nothing i can do... i'm always trying my best to put things into place... where i feel they should belong... but i just never get things right...

at certain point of time when i feel that i have finally made it, something's bound to be there to destroy my happiness...

There is always Fear in me... Fear of doing the wrong things, making the wrong decision... Fear of not being able to put in my best... but can anyone understands me???
i feel that i have been living throughout my life... looking forward to a brighter future... Everyone have their own dream, and yes i have mine too...and every step of me walking forward i know i am moving towards my dream... but i just felt so demoralize when i hear things like i am not putting in enough effort...

Maybe in life, there should be things we ought to give up some days....... i dunno how to say, and what to say...

* you may say i have a choice... but you always leave me with no choice...

Sometimes, i just wish i was never here... pls bring me away... so somewhere i finally can relax a little and feel happy at least...

2011-03-14T01:02:00.003+08:00

WOA!!! So busy these days... had always wanted to be released! lolx...
Breakfree from my work and school... well... its IMPOSSIBLE! haha...

Went IMM today! bought a new drawer for my CHILDCARE stuffs! you know! Childcare teachers need alot of spaces to put things lolx.. so before i get my house messed up again i better get myself a new space! lolx..

Went to Yew tee.. my aunt's hse to fetch the two little devils! lolx.. no la! they are not... just that children ma... lolx... =) went to fetch them and off we went to shop shop shop...
bought finger food for them to eat well.. i'm always like this... haha.. got scolded from my mummy cuz she say " later wanto eat dinner le la... still buy so many things to eat" lolx.. its nt alot lor!... well... she meant well anyway... but i still bought it anyway! hee hee...

i'm sure my little cousins enjoyed it too!! =)
They are really cute you know... *when they dun fight* lolx
i was thinking i wanna bring them to SENTOSA one day! haix... but have been to tight down to my assignments and work.... FP is coming! DAMN! means... MORE WORK MORE WORK! =(

Well.. previously had some misunderstanding with my aunt... was pretty upset... but hopefully things are getting better... hopefully things are getting back to normal.. cuz hmmm i tink to me i have been treating it like normally lor... forgetting quite fast! lolx..

Anyway, i just got to know how my cousin scored for her exams... hmmm some improvements and some not...
JIA YOU! hopefully she can score better in her next exam! i know she wanted me to give her tuition but i really very very busy these days man!
SEE!
Its been so long since i posted such a long blog! lolx...

*pray hard that tml my assignment that i submit i no need to RE-DO!

Oh ya! haha... i went for the Run and Raisin 2o11! 10 km marathon!
i cant believe it man! i actually ran non stop for 10 KM! omg!!!!!!! haha.. so proud of myself! although timing wasnt very good but well... 1 hour and 10 minutes for 10 km... okok la.. lolx... =P

hmmm that'll be abt all for now =) i'm gonna rest with all my muscle ache now! nitex!!

2011-03-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

its been some time since i update my blog...

have been really listless these days...
i dont know where my motivation GO!???

I feel that these days i'm lost!
probably becoz bf is also lost...

hai yo! plus... becoz of these.. i feel stress too!!
becoz i do not know where i wan to go too...

2011-02-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

Teaching is what i love the most now =)
well, children always say "teacher vivian, can you teach us pls" lolx..
so touch to hear that...

=)

2011-02-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

The EArly Valentine's Day celebration at Demsey Hill =)

This is like the first time me and bf going there alone! =)
And we are eating at DOME haha!
the food there are not bad...
=) really enjoyed myself!

2011-02-11T00:18:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New year! =)
The year of rabbit! =) my parent's year !
^.^ Was pretty busy with assignments recently...
and well... CNY!
means! lots of goodies to eat, lots of red packet to take... and
Thus... FAT ! haha...
Hmm... time for my slimming session again...
Trying to sqeeze time for it!!!

I Finally have some time to write blog... but still very tired...
should go sleep liaoz!! =)
*yawn!
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" I'm sry... but you have to understand... I tink it is better this way..."

2011-01-31T00:49:00.002+08:00

As the days got longerr,
The talks got shorter,
The kisses got sweeter,
&The feelings got stronger<3.

I think it is your attention
That lights on the candles

2011-01-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

My 2011 CNY wear! =)

2011-01-19T23:07:00.003+08:00

Just came back from Beijing and Harbin few days ago!
its Damn Cold can! omg... cannot imagine man...
-10 in beijing and - 30 in Harbin! lolx.. =)
its a very very good experience!

Then it snowed!! haha... Damn nice!!!

When we're there.... deardear got to know that he got into OCS which is what he wanted!
now that he is in OCS!
Wish him all the best lo...
cuz he will have lesser time for me but well!

ITS OK!! lolx... at most 2 years only wat lolx..

" My Darling deardear princess, i hereby wishes you a goonight sleep to recharge yourself for a even greater day ahead. u can take on the world if u wan, and there is nothing too tough for you. Love you lots lots and till death do us part "
Thanks dear! so sweet msg!! love you lots lots too! =)

2011-01-03T22:44:00.003+08:00

Its been so long since i last blog! Hmmm, i was pretty lazy =X
BUT! Its A New Year!!! 2011 shall be a good year (I wish!)

Bringing a smile to all my love ones!
let all troubles be blown off!
smiles and laughter comes along!

And Yeah! DUN WORRY and BE HAPPY! =)
^.^

2010 is a very fast year! and i am officially 21 this year,
have got alot more responsibilities to hold...
well, i need to be the one taking care of my family now...

New target of the year! complete my DPT and serving my bond well!
to be able to bring fun and laughter to childrens! =)

In year 2010, Dearest had spend 1/4 of it serving the nation!
and he slimmed down alot!
his love and care still are as strong!

And YEAH!

May we hold on this feeling forever =)

Well, for a start, i am happy! =)
let it continue! be OPTIMISTIC!
and that's me! ^.^

2010-12-13T12:58:00.002+08:00

Today is a happy day~ !
but i've got no idea why! haha...

but then i feel so sleepy too ...
hmm.. shall i go down to clarke quay to buy my Sticky?!?!

or go to chinatown and have my dessert lolx...
but i'm alone lor!... cuz everyone seems busy...

bf is going to have RT this week... hmmm
but friday night going for movie with my friends? hee luckily i end at 5
pray hard they dun change my schedule...
plsssssssssssss!

2010-12-08T22:33:00.002+08:00

I think i'm really stressed out these days!
i dunno why but working in the childcare makes me real stressed up...

I keep having the thought that people are unfair to me
to all the effort i put in...
all the time i have wasted...
i need to cool myself down...

!!! Arg!!!

2010-12-07T23:32:00.006+08:00

I have been waiting to post something about my 21st birthday!

Big thank you to all my relatives and friends who helped me alot in this event...
i never know i can really be a princess for like atleast that day!
haha!
=)

Thank You Jayson ONG!! for being my camera man for that daY!
You're a great help!
And to all my friends for the hard work of blowing the balloons!
OFcuz not forgetting my wonderful siblings and DADDY!
for helping me with the decor things cuz if i am alone
i wont be able to make it so nice!! *.*

This guest book is specially made by the 3 of us!
Thank you sisters! i know you all lov me so much!
ITS Freaking nice laR! Its all handmade okay! every single page!!
Every single piece of paper... and then joined together with a huge ring!
i will look at this every year man! even when i grow old!

Thank you dear! although you was VERY late!
and i got angry!
but well, accidents do happen
i know u didn't mean it and i believe my family members
scare you enough! haha =P
Thank for the sun flower! you're the best !
And!!!!! ofcuz! the LV bag! ^.^

This cousin is also 21! lolx... he is in army now... lolx..
the reason why i put this pic up is becoz!
ITS a miracle i get to take picture with him becoz he always
hides away from camera! haha

Thank you seed friends! loves!!

And of cuz i never forget poly mates who helped me alot!
but well, i couldnt get a perfect photo that have all of us nicely
Jayson is camera man and i dunno why pictures got blur!
really thank u all alot!!
i love u all so much!!

HAHA!!! i never forget sec friends too also k!
Sisi and Jing! Thank for coming! really miss you all so much!!
i wanna go overseas with u all leh! lets plan !!
=)

SEE!!!! so many ppl enjoying the moments of me opening my prezzie!!!

WOW!!!!

and of cuz the significant ones are enlarged!
This was given by my aunts! =)

This was given by my MUM!!!

AND my GRANDMA!!!
Its gold okay... haha.. my only gold necklace i guess becoz
seldom ppl buy gold nowadays unless marrying?
haha... But thank grandma =) i know she loves me!

Greatly appreciates all!!
And i really enjoyed!!!

LOVES!!!!!!
=)
^.^
*.*
+.+
=.=

Hee, Hee!!

2010-11-29T02:33:00.001+08:00

I'm all well- Prepared! and this picture was me on my way down for the Birthday Decor! =)

2010-11-26T01:17:00.004+08:00

Despite that i was really tired today as i haven been sleeping well for the past few days due to assignments and my birthday decor... i really wanna blog today.
Eventhough it is 1.20 am now... Zzzz

There was no lesson today just had FP post briefing for reflection... So during lunch time i had lunch with debby, ruoh yan, linda, shufen and angela... we went for Zhu chao Lunch! lolx..
yummy food for only 7 bucks!

I am very stressed but yet very thankful and happy today!

Thank you AF06 for giving s surprize! i was really shocked! when i saw the cake irah baked and the really nice sunflower !

I nearly burst out tears but i just controlled it!
Thanks Mama Puisan, Cutie keryn, Sweetie Rong zhu, mysterious rylia and lovely Elieen
for the very very very nice sunflower ^.^

I was really shock and touched!
you girls really brighten up my day!! loves!!! MUACKIES!

2010-11-22T23:32:00.001+08:00

Thanks Chai Yin jie for giving a longchamp bag as my birthday present ^.^

My cake is settled *.* Thank god!

next up... buffet and my guest book! *.* ...

2010-11-21T23:46:00.003+08:00

I feel like leaving this family... i don't like it here... to be with them...
somehow it tortures me...

I really don't understand...
There are so many problems... nowadays i'm like so stress! once came back from china... i have like so many things not done...

TONNES of cloths nt ironed... no one is willing to help... buffet number keep changing... i dont even know how... cake ordered... delivery time don't suit... and no fridge to store the so big cake...
i'm so worried...

money also nt enough...
The worst part! my mum... instead of helping... she's making everything worse...
the only thing she knows i think is blaming me...

2010-11-11T22:55:00.004+08:00

I was Really really sick this afternoon... couldn't get help from anyone... Cried while waiting for cab... thinking should i call my mum, should i call papa, should i call aunt...=(
i dun wish to trouble anyone... but i seriously need help
at that point of time,
I thought i would faint... blur vision
burning eye and forehead...

i didn't wan to skip lesson becoz i cant due to Hai Nan island trip
but i really couldn't take it...
vomited once i went back...
slept until er jie came over and gave me some medicine...
brought me to the doctor...

it was a real scary experience... as if the sky is going to fall on me...
i didn't wanna admit i'm sick... but i couldn't take it anymore...

I nearly called ambulance for help... but thank Er jie!
She safed my life...

First time in my life i felt so helpless... in the past, my mummy was with me
but today... i was just all alone... at bugis...
Pale green face scares off taxi drivers and no one wanna fetch me back...
luckily one nice uncle offered help....

* i guess no matter how strong a person wants to be, he/she need support at times...

2010-11-10T00:45:00.003+08:00

It was my youngest sister a few days ago! and only until now that i finally
have a LITTLE bit of time to blog

Bought a small sling bag for my sister as her birthday present which cost me $32 lolx..
Hope she likes it... ...

Bought a birthday cake $26.60 Which my parents did not return me money =(
BROKE!

THEN... on sunday...
Went out with my family members dragging along my cough and flu...
bad bad bad...
but still enjoyed myself quite abit ^.^

I guess i don't really look sick here though! lolx

but was really feeling very bad...

i'm leaving to HAINAN island this coming weekend!! =)
Hope its gonna be a fruitful trip! =)
Cheers!
*hope i can fully recover before i go lo...

2010-11-03T20:27:00.002+08:00

I woke up in the morning and was sick!
Zzz... flu at first... but i still head for work...
Then headache comes along...
Then fever comes along and now....
i think i am having soarthroat!

I saw this rainbow the other day at the busstop near my Childcare Centre ^.^
I wanted to share the joy so i took a picture of it!
Can you all see it?

Love it!! Its been so so so so long since i last seen a Rainbow!

*vivian... recover fast pls!

2010-11-03T01:33:00.002+08:00

NICE ma?
Drawn by me! lolx!

This design is for a shirt which is for my family and relatives who are going
on a VACATION together 2 weeks later...
I'm a little sick now... not sure whats the problem... cold? flu?

I have a new special needs child in my class today...
Hmmm ... ASD... I am not sure how to teach or guide him now
but i am sure i will be able to make it through!

Previously there was this boy whom i don't think is classified under
special needs yet but there is always difficulties talking to him
now... he understands some words that we use
and my heart melts when he smile at me showing me he understands me ^.^

*Sneeze Sneeze Sneeze!!!
Gosh! i need to go get some medicine now...
**** Drowsy medicine... but well... no choice!
See ya again NiteS!

2010-10-31T22:02:00.001+08:00

Its time to plan for my birthday celebration now...
but due to my teeth! i am short of cash lolx...
well, but what to do...

thus decide to have most of my things DIY...
sketch book... DIY...
i wanna make a nice party for my friends... had been thinking what kind of
theme shall i put, but i was thinking i should make it some kind of theme
my friends and family dont always get to celebrate...

Ballroom is becoz i feel that it is interesting when my aunts who knows how to dance can dance?
lolx... i dunno how to but i hope they will enjoy themselves.

but i do need friends helping me out on my decorations etc...
think of something to help entertain my friends? lolx... gosh!
i guess i would be real stress that day!

2010-10-28T20:04:00.002+08:00

Recently got Terrible muscle ache!...
Then on wed when i going to work i fell down the stairs and hurt my angle!
STUPID!

Bought for bf the pocari sweat power form for his field camp
Had been looking all over with him and didn't find
but its hidden... lolx... now i found le so happy!

Recently assignment tight tight tight... hoping that lecturer can extend but
haix... difficult... *plus so difficult to do...

May all the stress go go go go go ....

2010-10-23T00:04:00.003+08:00

Finally found a PINK dress suitable for bf's sis's wedding!
Wahaha... when the day comes, early morning 5am need to wake up and prepare to give yves and his bros a torture before he can bring bf's sis over hee hee hee...
*evil!
And the dress looks like this! =)
Which only cost me $20 plus =)

Well, at least i think this pink is real nice =)
I mean the tone of the pink...
HOPEFULLY i will look nice in it too lols...

Had a long shop...
Helped my sister to get dresses

*its real difficult helping them to buy dress!
but still managed to...

Shop all the way until night... 9 pm and had dinner at only about 10 plus!!

*BF called me but i didnt notice... (missed call)
then i called back... he didn't ans (missed call)
zzz

then ended up just sms haha...

Tml i shall wear my first maxi dress! =)

2010-10-18T11:34:00.003+08:00

Assignments after Assingments...
Problems after Problems...

Haix.. when will my idiotic sister just stop this...
She really makes me feel like taking a knife to kill her!

Such a lousy man and she is crazy over him!
without manners without respect...

He really makes me HATE MALAY boys!
atleast all from MARSILING SEC!

2010-10-13T23:16:00.006+08:00

I finally get to upload these photos
TAKEN on 11/10/10
DAD's birthday! =)

Hope he enjoyed! =) although there are some unhappy things
that happened recently but i do still hope things will be fine =)

SMILES!

2010-10-13T20:46:00.002+08:00

Last Friday went for blood donation...
=)

Its been so long since i donated... due to insufficient IRON level lolx
but finally! yeah!

Today at centre, I have a real professional make up artist as my admin!
haha! then she helped me drew this!

NICE? lolx... she drew real fast!
she is so artistic!

NICE!

Then when the thing peeled off, it look like this! =)

And i bought the children out to the playground in the afternoon
... played with them ... run around with them...
Perspire like crazy! lolx..
REALLY TIRED!
but had lots of fun with them

I guess that how a teacher should be =)

2010-10-08T00:04:00.003+08:00

7th OCT! went out with rong, jayson and gene...
=)
Ad a nice dinner and chit chat!... Walk here and there.. lolx..
Hope to see them again soon...

NEXT UP!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY EU! =)
Finally 21st birthday! and soon will be mine *.*

Takecare always! smile more!

2010-10-06T22:15:00.002+08:00

Random! haha... Well... I just wanna smile Like i use to ^.^
Looking at the pictures... i hope i can...

2010-10-04T23:21:00.001+08:00

iching iching everywhere... stupid hives! get off me =(
haix... its just a jog! what happen to me man!
Sianz...

2010-10-03T22:21:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was kite flying day!
I thought it wasn't going to be successful but it did!! =)
So happy.. ^.^

First we went to dear's dad office.. he settle some computer stuff,
Then we went for a walk at VIVO... had godiva chocolate
all the way from PARIS! thanks to my aunt who went there...
Then... had the AWFULLY CHOCOLATE at vivo!SOSOSOSO nice!! yummy!
Thanks to shufen who introduced that to me *.*

And then... packet all the food we need to and off we go!
Waited for dear's mummy to drive...
and then we went to marina barrage!

The weather was a little too hot but wind is still strong! =)

And before the sky became dark.. we went back! =)
Suntec for dinner and thats it for the day =)

Today went to dear's hse...
nothing much to do there.. we had lunch.. then to the temple..
Then to NTUC with his parents.. and then back home for dinner!

Took some random pic i think i just feel like acting cute! hahaha...

And now dear's back to Tekong again...

Eugene POP! and my cousin too!
Well.. shall meet up with you guys some days! make it weekday! lolx.. cuz weekends are always booked my my bf ^.^

2010-10-01T01:06:00.004+08:00

Its our Gathering... after so so so long!
so nice to meet you all!! muackz!!
We should meet up often... (IF we have the time) =)
we had been camwhoring the whole day!!
lolx... from toilet... while we walk... food... esplanade! =)

Can you guess which shadow belongs to who?haha...i really love my camera man... so cool!

We also tried out some effects! haha... cool isn't it!!
thank to jing! lolx... she is always that creative...

LAST to introduce but first to enjoy! haha..
Our Delicious food!

i really think it is worth it! cuz the food are nice and many variety!
but sad to say we cant really finish the amount we took!
(Thanks to jing jing huh)
lolx... lots of laughter and catch up today!

Then bf suddenly appear!
he lied to me lor... said that he lights off liaoz...
then suddenly stand behind me! lolx...

but still!
Thanks dear, for the effort to always wants to surprize me...
but your skills of lying need to brush up abit... haha =p

2010-10-01T01:02:00.001+08:00

IT's CHILDREN's DAY!

This is what i gave my students =) hope they like it! cute isn't it! hee hee
i got them some bubbles too! and they had lots of fun playing in the morning!
=) although it is really tiring but when you see the smiles on their faces! its all worth it!

I really love my children's so so so much!! *.*

2010-09-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

Lesson at sentosa on monday...
Got tired... and not feeling very well... probably too tired for these few days...
The beach is really nice! =) so long never go...
See le also happy but under the hot sun for so long just to build
those sand castle!... ARG!...

2010-09-23T00:43:00.002+08:00

I am so frustrated... nothing seems to be done...
Doing so much things and yet not done.... I am trying my best to do as many things as possible...

I have so many things to do and i can do but i dun have to time... 4 hours of sleep everyday... and now i have to do lesson plan for my class... Although i am teaching only every tuesday and wednesday... i have to do lesson plan for everyday and evaluation arg...!!! Assignments are pilling up too... field supervision is just around to corner... i haven got myself prepared at all =( now i also have tuition to teach ... I'm bursting soon...

How can i cope... ???? so many things at one go...
Is that why people go crazy?

I cant every do a simple bf ask me to do... haix...
My eyes can barely open... i'm going to rest now... ... ... ...

2010-09-19T23:50:00.002+08:00

Snapple for a Hot day is just so nice!! =)
Dear is going back tekong again today...
We went to vivo to shop awhile!
but didn't get anything... just a walk with his parents... and it is so nice! ^.^
He seems a little sad that he is going in again... cuz time pass real fast!

When i caught him looking out looking so sad...

Then i got him to take a picture with me... and this is how he smile!
so... i gave the same face too!

He is like a little boy... ^.^

LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!! muacks!!

As for this pic! got abit random! lolx...
Just thought this pic look like a little girl! haha...

well... I AM STILL a little girl!hahahahahaha!
nt 21 yet!

2010-09-15T11:35:00.003+08:00

Finally my internet is back.. but i dunno when will it go dying again...
Wanted to post pictures on my darling's first book out!

Last week end was fully packed...

1) went for pool with andy and jackson
2) chalet at changi with my godma
3) busy making the toy carrot
4) dear's book in

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Then my assignment result's out...
One of my individual assignment i got D+ =(
Haix... trying so hard

2010-09-05T03:20:00.001+08:00

After baking cookies... i'm missing my darling boy so much.... *yawn!
Ok... its time to sleep!

2010-09-05T00:23:00.004+08:00

My First Teacher's day =)

2010-09-01T22:59:00.001+08:00

Dear just called me... starting to be emo these days...
I think probably he felt so stress inside...
Hmm.... I too misses him so much but still have to wait...

He is a strong person and he will go through these smoothly =)
Deardear Jia you!

2010-08-29T00:05:00.002+08:00

Why does time pass so slowly when you're nt around?
Since the day you left, Many things happened...
Talking about andy's r/s, hope they are fine... so long they are happy...
cuz they haven been contacting me le...

I guess... only when you're around then they would =)
Counting down ... 11 more days... Zzzz...

Hope you are fine inside *.* Well, strong man! should be ok..
Its me who is the weak one.. haha...

*Misses

2010-08-27T14:19:00.001+08:00

When bf goes army... means i should try to slim down too...

haha... if nt later bf slim slim i fat fat!

2010-08-26T23:31:00.002+08:00

dear just went into tekong... and i'm feeling so sad ...
how i wish u were here with me becoz there are so many things
i'm always so blur in handling such without you around...

I thought i am helping a friend but it turned out otherwise...
haix... Andy and Zhi long, am i stupid or wat?
hai yo yo...

so sad... i feel like crying...

2010-08-26T01:04:00.003+08:00

An advanced birthday wishes for my dearest...
Happy 21st birthday dear! =)

Going army in the morning =(
but well... its somethings a must! lolx
so no choice lo, anyway 2 weeks only ma ... can de la..
hee hee... Jia you!
Slimming session starts le... lolx...

Grandma cooked lots of yummy yummy food for you!!

Yum Yum! plus the greentea cake...
i haven got you anything yet... hmmm... still thinking...
hee hee =)

2010-08-24T23:28:00.002+08:00

Dear made a video for me...
and i thought of this video made for my family
sometime ago... i think its nice to just show it again =)

2010-08-24T00:41:00.005+08:00

First time at flyers! =) nice! cuz got fireworks!!!
have been meeting dear daily these days... cuz i'm gonna miss him!!
he's going in liaozx...

Went singapore flyer with andy and pearlyn...
i initially thought we will have the 50% discount... but then...
must booked 7 days in advance!! which is too late! =( but luckily
i have passion card... so atleast have 20% discount...

And we got to watch fireworks!!! lolx..
Its kindof random! but really nice!!!

Dear's scared of height! ... i can feel he's worried when we're up!
but... well.... i think its fine =)
he looks so cute upthere..lolx..

<3 love!

2010-08-22T02:53:00.002+08:00

Met, andy and his gf with dear and they played bb...
then we head to BPP for Dinner at xin wang Taiwan...
Come to think of it... dear's going army next thursday! Zzzzz
SOSOSO FAST!! =(

Sian... plus i am having class on that day... hope i can skip..
Lucky i still have not skipped any lessons before... which allows me
to be able to skip one day =)

hee. hee.. muacks!

2010-08-22T01:41:00.003+08:00

I bought a new jacket afew days ago...
=) just $16 bucks at BPP

2010-08-15T14:43:00.002+08:00

Had been very long since i blog =) due too assignments and assignments!

BUT

recently do have quite afew happy moments with friends and family out there =)

MR Han! and MS Han! =) Happy birthday!!
Thanks for the wonderful celebration!
I think all of us enjoyed yesterday night!

AND all these thanks to Mrs Han for putting in so much effort planning!
LOVES! ...

Friday night went to Seryuan's Gf's birthday BBQ for awhile...
SO long never see him.. now he has a gf! lolx..
Actually is i am outdated!

THen... i saw Andy and his Gf...
Ai yoyo... his hair huh... now become so biker look! lolx...
Although when i see him it makes me think about the past
when he is still tgt with sisi...
but honestly...
i feel that his current girlfriend seems to suits him more
And i can see that he is happier now =)

good for him!!
^.^

I am waiting for photos to be uploaded ! =)

2010-08-04T22:34:00.002+08:00

These days have been very very busy... After the trip from Tioman... the days seems to be so fast... Last sat met my aunt for coffee... then heard lots of upset stuffs... haix... so sian... didnt know that there are so many unhappy things around us...

I felt sad for her but at the same time i couldn't do much.... i could only lend her my ear... i really hope things could be better...

Recently my family's financial problem is up again... sometimes i just feel so stress... eventhough it may nt be my problem... anyway, thanks second aunt for buying me a nice chanel earing =)

Rong's birthday is coming up! cant wait to go to her chalet... to get myself relax over so tired stuffs around me...

Recently, there are new classes in my centre... toddlers, N1 and some new K1 students... and it had been real tiring handling them...

Although they are cute... ^.^ they can be irritating at times lolx.. but! i will do my best.... *.*

Hope that next tuesday when i go there they childrens had settled down and no more crying and whining... lolx...

2010-07-20T00:05:00.000+08:00

you are just so bad.... haix... whether i am hearing which side of the story... i just dun think u should do that... haix ...

2010-07-09T22:35:00.002+08:00

I'm so so Looking forward to some holidays so that i could relax myself...

Got to realize that as an adult esp in my family, i really have pretty lots to do...
Now that i am studying and working... Pushing a 3 year course to 1 year is already tiring enough and i have been taking care of all the house work these days... It really had me worn out...

Had myself thinking and thinking... I really felt that it is time i do something...
Even if i had to argue with my family i just need to voice out how tired i am...

And so... as i got home today, really exhausted... i walked in the house... with (Venesa watching TV), and (Victoria facing the computer)... I was really mad...
All i remember what i did was, so angry and said: "Dunno how to help out in anything... all you all know is computer and television... everything also i do" in a very attitude tone...

And as my mum is off today, she stand by and hear me lecture my siblings... Kept quiet and wait for my sisters to reply... then one of my sister shouted back :" whats your problem! Screaming at us just when u come back!"

Well... the point is they are waiting for me to mop the floor, Iron their school uniform and my parent's cloths and they are relaxing complaining that they are very tired...
Haixx... so i let them know that i have to study and work at the same time and it is really very tiring to settle all the house work by myself...

I mention i need help...
so i ask for their suggestion and solution...

So Venesa mention that she will do the moping every sat...
And victoria will just fold cloths everyday
And i will do just ironing including their uniform...
Well... i felt its quite ok so i agreed to it... without realizing that there are other things such as washing toilets... and other small stuffs...

Well... anyway... i got a lighter job now... PHEW!!

Hope things goes on well now!

And lastly... Wish dear to get well soon!

2010-06-20T20:47:00.003+08:00

Happy Father's day Daddy!
- Morning durian was wonderful!
- and Dinner was very nice too! + the crabs =)

next is just some pictures taken while gathering ytd but very sad that only 5 ppl turn up
well.. its ok... hope more would in future ^.^

2010-06-17T21:34:00.002+08:00

Its been such a tiring week for me...

Just started on the childcare for not very long and had been very well for me as i really feel very happy when the little angels just smiles at me...

Running to me to hug me and some bonus me with a kiss ^.^ little cute toddlers!

This week, i am taking the nursery kids, oh my... so mischievous... and some just won't listen...
well.. that's children i should say... as 2 teachers are away, i took up that class for 1 week... although still smooth but i'm getting sick... zzzz... flu.. cough... Ai yo yo!

Then this week dear's gonna be overseas until next monday i guess... so will be so free after work... cuz not meeting him... lolx.. but i was entertained my my daddy! becoz of worldcup... everyday i have to rush home to on my laptop to get ready for the 7.30 play! lolx...

Tiring but what to do... he's my dad... and only through online he gets to see it for free! And the sad thing is... he dunno how to use the computer... lolx...

so long never get to go cck meet the 2 other angels ... miss them!

2010-06-06T23:59:00.002+08:00

Recently, was pretty relaxed over the house chores! =) which is a good thing for me! but somehow i had increased my dad's chores.. lolx...

Cuz as usual, my sisters wont help much...

But... i had increased in my School's work... and Assignments... Centre's job... was kinda busy too... Didn't really had enough time to rest...

Then just got a sudden extreme fast heart beat once i step in home... Zzz... was that some kind of symptoms for heart problems??!!
i think i'm just too extreme.. haha... anyway it only last for about 5 - 10 minutes ba...
=)

2010-06-05T11:07:00.001+08:00

I Just WASTED 1 and a half Hour!!! waiting for nothing!!! angry and frustrated!!! ZZZZzzzz

2010-05-27T00:17:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i really wish that i wasn't born the eldest, My life haven't been very good ever since i start to be able to realize what i was doing? From the day i know how to do many things myself, I had to triple the things i do. Am i not a human too?
I know i can be considered as a very fortunate kid since young as i had many loved ones around me to shover me with care and concern. Nevertheless, i'm still not very happy about the way i am living in.
Maybe i'm just not satisfied with many things that are happening at home. I am not sure since when, i started to realize i am becoming the worker of this home. Then i realize i hate to stay at home, it doesn't really matter whether i use to have a maid or not, am i not doing things myself?

Often, i would start to think of reasons for me to stay out late, just because i do not wan to stay home with her alone. I dun hate her, but me, to me, a home - isn't it a place for me to feel relaxed and a place i wanna be at?
Why do i feel so stressed to go home? To do the everything that only me and i had to do.

My dad will say:"she's recovering from the minor operation" so she will be resting at home, and i have to do everything.
That's okay to me, definitely okay.

I could confidently say, even if she is not on Medical leave, she is home, she never does anything... Not at all... other than shouting, screaming, complaining, what else?

I asked myself, when was the last time i ever tasted my mum's cooking? There is a blank to my questions because i don't even remember when...

I ... I love my home, I love my nest... but just realizing i love it more when she is not at home...
I hate it when i hear orders, especially from her... Why can't i be treated like an adult at home? don't i know when i need to wash and clean things?

If she just can't be satisfied to what i am doing, then why not do herself? Make a cup of tea! and she asked me to make for her when i am busy with other chores...and complain not enough sweet and such... where's her hands and legs???

I'm really tired tired and tired of all these... She is squeezing me dry!

Haix... okay.

I'm getting more and more agitated now...
I shall stop here...

2010-05-25T01:45:00.003+08:00

Things moved on...
People Changes...

And

I realize sometimes once a mistake is done nothing can amend it...

As times goes by... the hole is dug deeper and deeper...

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To me, There are certain things that i can never forget...
Well... nt the bad ones...

MEMORIES are precious... our Brain's space are limited...
THUS!....

I often keep the good memories... Although certain hurtful truth are hidden inside...
that can never be washed away...

2010-05-19T00:11:00.003+08:00

Its so nice to have graduated and its time for me to start on another journey of my life...
Although i am quite happy that i have graduated... but still didn't manage to graduate with some friends... kind of sad for them...

Its time for me to work hard and study hard...
Diploma in early childhood education ... Then degree...
Then hopefully i can open my own childcare? hee hee...

Mummy is going for an operation this thursday... i suppose its a small operation ba...
Still hopes she will get well soon...

Now... no work... everyday is hse work hse work... lolx...
Tired lo... endless... lolx...

2010-05-12T16:59:00.001+08:00

Gathering on 8 may =) Although its just a dinner with u all... i will definitely miss all of us!

2010-05-02T22:53:00.002+08:00

Lolx... so many people celebrating 21st birthday This year =) Really wishes them a happy birthday =D

Came back from chalet today and went for Korean lesson... lolx... Anyong hasae yo!! lolx...

Then had durian again !!　whoohoo!! yummy!

But my home... always conflicts... Zzz... sianz...

All thanks to my sister... ZZZ

2010-04-27T23:28:00.001+08:00

Got lazy of uploading images lately haha...

Today's my sister's birthday!! HaPPY BIrthday VENESA! =)
Hope u enjoyed!

2 days ago... which is on SUN! was my cousin's 21st Birthday! =) we had a celebration at his hse =) well... i stole a picture from my aunt on FB...

Cuz i didnt take any picture... lolx...

Coming up! GUAN's Bd... Although i know he never reads my blog... lolx..
but... still friday going to his chalet =)

and probably gonna meet sisi on sat night =)

2010-04-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

Tml going to My cousin's Chinese dance SYF!!

Yeah! lolx... just wanna get myself off the stressful days... =)

2010-04-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

也许你说得对...

说的说了...

伤的伤了...

我们给彼此的伤害太深了... 我了解了...

原本以为我们之间就相一家人... 是不会有隔夜仇的...

但是我错了...

爱与狠就在一念之差...

sometimes... things that are done wrongly are easy to be forgotten... and to start again...

But sometimes... certain things done will never be forgotten...

2days ago... 'A good friends called'
I told her... :"Jing's BD is coming... wat do we intend to do this year?"
This is wat she say: " vian... i think u dun care so much le ba... since already like that le... "

问问我自己... 我真的能不在乎吗?

每年的那天... 都是我们为她庆祝...

也许你不再想念...
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我终于发现我有多在乎你...

太迟了...

2010-04-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

Probably its time for me to let go...

Bf says: 没有永远的朋友也没有永远的敌人

He says if i tell myself not to regard them as so close probably i won't feel so upset...

Maybe he is right... but i need time then...

Eventhough there were unhappiness between... nvr once though it would end up like this...

Today my sister is sick... We went to buy my cousin's bd gift...
Then my sister tell me :" Da jie, should i buy pressie for my friend's bd?" I ask her :"How close are you to them?"

She answered: "Ok Ok lor..."
Then she asked me :"How about me"
without hesitation i answered :" Normally i would only buy and celebrate bds for my close ones" "Such as rong ar, si ar, jing ar etc lor"

Then i suddenly went silent...
feeling sad and down... i tell myself ever since secondary school.... i always regard myself as close to them but they never say ar...

So is i one side thinking only... and i realise... all the neoprints we had taken from the past are really gonna be memories...

Will those scenes ever appear again?
I guess they wouldn't ba...

But why me??

Just because i am straight forward?
Just because i took the initiative to spoke up?
Just because i am the one saying those things?

And its just me... it always has to be me...
Whenever there are unhappiness... i am always the bad person...
Just becoz my habit is to talk...

I guess... this would be the last time i'm tearing becoz of them...
PPL might say its nt worth it... people might tell me to forget about them...
But i'll just tear this once more...

Honestly, i've never felt so uneasy due to friendship before... i can't help but to think of it...

look at the mirror... i asked: " when was the times you were really happy?"

P.S : smiles means i'm happy? 你不是真正快乐...

2010-04-16T00:34:00.003+08:00

I just got to know that my group of secondary school friends are gonna meet to give christina a bd surprize tml...

Sad to say i was not invited ...
Hmm... i can guess wat reason also la... Although
i will feel a little sad... but i dun wanna spoil their day too =)

We arent very close during sec sch days too... sisi... Help me bring me wishes over =)
Thanks!

2010-04-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

Suddenly got a little emo a few minutes ago....

And i thought of blogging... well... it seems that i am real busy busy busy these days...
Never had enough time for myself ...

I realise... many friends around me are all busy too =)

Sisi - working
Rong - working
Jess - working

Lolx... all admin.... hmmm
Only my part time job sucks! but i have to say... i'm helping my dad...

Well! glad that i'm starting my childcare soon! then i can meet sisi for dinner probably.. cuz my childcare is at Zheng hua! haha....

Miss some of my friends lots...

This year... most of my friends are going 21... i dunno if they are going to celebrate...
And i might not be able to attend all if they celebrates too...

I just wish them a very very happy and successful year ahead!
First up is Christina Ho... Its really been a long time since i hear from her... hope she is doing fine...

Then its Yu Jing ... after some misunderstandings and arguements... we had not been contacting... Her BD is coming soon... i also hope she can celebrate with her love ones and hope she had a successful years ahead =)

Then is Venesa lwa! (my sister) hmmm she is nt 21 but still her bd is coming... hope she enjoys!!
Score well for her O levels this year...

Well.. i feel emo becoz i can only dedicate my wishes here.... i do not have christina's contact.... and i wouldnt be able to contact yu jing too since there's unhappiness between... haix...

2010-04-12T21:47:00.007+08:00

SUNDAY! 11 Apr which is YTD is my uncle's Birthday =) This is the first year we actually celebrated his birthday for him =) but hmmm i didnt take much photos...

In the morning... we went to Shao Mu! Erm... for those who dun understand... eh... it is when we visit our ancestors and elders who had left us... =)

This year like last year, we went to grandpa's first then to grandma as grandpa and grandma are not placed tgt...

Heehee... took some pictures...

The Sun is really scorching HOT! omg! but =) once in a year... lolx.. nice =)

2010-04-11T23:10:00.005+08:00

10 April...Steam boat with friends!!

Then we took some pictures before going back...
I had lots and lots to share with them... =)

Roy joined us only for awhile for photo taking cuz he just nice end work le ...

Those guys... nth to do while we girls are taking photos and talking

Rong... and me... lots to say... 1 day nth enough

2010-04-03T12:51:00.003+08:00

Just came back from Genting... The trip was pretty fun...

I hope all had enjoyed! =)

-The hotel room was pretty small... there isnt a cupboard... haha
but still ok ... We staying on the 28th floor! highest! but no nice view...

We celebrated Shannon's BD at genting! haha..
Hope we did suprized him!

THE theme park SPace shot was not opened =( saddies!

i sure wants to go to more of the trips with friends =)
next time probably jessica, bird... and rong rong could join us too!

2010-03-31T00:03:00.001+08:00

I just bought this dress online =)

Nt sure if it will look good on me...but i think its a pretty special design

2010-03-24T23:47:00.003+08:00

Today went to the interview for PCF childcare...
=) Dear Accompanied me there...
If not i would be alone...
Thanks... dear

=) Then dear drove to bugis... we had dinner... and his mum drove me to cck...
After tuition and home sweet home...
=)

2010-03-21T12:52:00.002+08:00

Things happen for a reason...
It don't just changes over night...

Dun Ask... but Reflect

2010-03-19T23:17:00.001+08:00

Gonna have dinner with dear tml at sakura! =)

2010-03-18T22:33:00.002+08:00

ARG!!! Why cant my sister just be a little more sensible!
From today onwards i'm not gonna do anything for her anymore...
Becoz she dun deserves...

And my mum too... she just dun do anything...
why cant they just see that i am doing so much!

i'm gonna collapse soon...

2010-03-17T22:54:00.002+08:00

YEAH! Today was a successful day!!
HEHE... I was attached to a pre school grp in the morning...
they are so adorable and unexpectedly they are close to me hehe...

One even called me mummy.. Zzzz...

I hope to be able to see them again! =)

YEAH! twist!

2010-03-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

=) Went to meet sisi and ben today...
Waited for him to finish his piano lesson, me and sisi walked around cck...
And we saw andrew! haha long time no see .... he is wearing a cap i guess becoz
he is currently bald... maybe? lolx.. becoz army...

Anyway... sisi's got a swollen lips! lolx..
She is allergy to seafood... lolx...
but from the photo cant see clearly la....
but can see her upper lips swollen...

Poor thing... she took like almost 30 minutes to finish a bowl of udon...
GET WELL SOON AR!

We took some pictures at PS... haha Random...

We saw the manhattan Paper Bag!! so so so big.. lolx.. haha...
ben says:"sisi, do u feel sad that a paper bag is taller than u?"
So bad... but the bag is sure huge...

Then we went for a movie... which isnt very nice... waste money... Zzzz

And then.. Home Sweet Home =)

2010-03-13T22:49:00.001+08:00

YESH! Got an A for FYP project!!! =)