Thursday, June 28, 2007
Time passes...Now is the 9th week i've been in republic poly. WOW! time flies!haha
Anyway.. just wanted to share that RP's faci some are really biased.. they just give more attention to those better students... isn't it unfair?
Anyway.. i hope i'll get better faci in the next sem!! lolx..
O ya...wanted to share some news about my life... lolx.. i just booked a chalet of a friend afew days ago... And becoz of that, i wont have enough money to buy extra present anymore... haix.. and i still owe that person 80 bucks.. haha.. but not i dun wanna return hor! he dun want to keep?!! crazy.. lolx.. giving money away.. haha.. no la.. actually i know that he is just being nice..hmm... i have to save up!! save up!! lolx.. i will be able to relieve myself off loads asap!
Actually i quite look forward to that chalet lolx... And i hope that things would change between us, however, if still the same. i guess i have to stop all this. i dun wanna feel that i am the only one loving... or i should say i dun wan it to be seen as the only one loving... like people always say " zhi zuo duo qing"!! lolx...
Signing off: ViAnVIaN~
ThE BrEadmAsteR * the NaIvE GaL...
Anyway.. just wanted to share that RP's faci some are really biased.. they just give more attention to those better students... isn't it unfair?
Anyway.. i hope i'll get better faci in the next sem!! lolx..
O ya...wanted to share some news about my life... lolx.. i just booked a chalet of a friend afew days ago... And becoz of that, i wont have enough money to buy extra present anymore... haix.. and i still owe that person 80 bucks.. haha.. but not i dun wanna return hor! he dun want to keep?!! crazy.. lolx.. giving money away.. haha.. no la.. actually i know that he is just being nice..hmm... i have to save up!! save up!! lolx.. i will be able to relieve myself off loads asap!
Actually i quite look forward to that chalet lolx... And i hope that things would change between us, however, if still the same. i guess i have to stop all this. i dun wanna feel that i am the only one loving... or i should say i dun wan it to be seen as the only one loving... like people always say " zhi zuo duo qing"!! lolx...
Signing off: ViAnVIaN~
ThE BrEadmAsteR * the NaIvE GaL...
4:13 PM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
=) Whenever i see nice things, i would wanna buy for him, When i eat nice food, i would wanna eat with him. whenever i have wonderful things, i would wanna save it for him or share with him. =) i knew.. i loved him!... waiting waiting waiting... =) eventhough it is waiting. i love to do so...for him... =)
i will improve myself!! =)
Signing off:
~vIaN~
BrEadMastEr**
i will improve myself!! =)
Signing off:
~vIaN~
BrEadMastEr**
11:25 PM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
心情好差...
爱到不可思议....
但是决定一段时间冷静下来...
我要让他得到快乐... 天天都快了....
我只想说, 我们都需要一个藉口...
藉口里有我和他的寂寞...
只要这样... 就足够...
不能分辨错对是非, 没有谁进谁该退...
不能接受停你告别, 微笑装作停不见....
闭上眼就能假装天黑....
只能闭上眼假装天黑....
一个醒来的午后, 眼睛有点肿, 天空有点迷蒙...
我是否在梦中, 脑袋有点空, 手脚不想移动...
雨后一道彩虹, 人们开始走, 我该不该停留...
这世界一直转动....
你离开以后... 忘了什么时候...
不想哭, 眼泪在眼中... 我想笑, 嘴角却不动...
你的眼, 突然间 看不懂...
不想哭, 找不到理由... 我想笑, 心却一直在痛...
你的脸 让空气 变沉重...
想忘了啊... ... 爱过了... 怎么能够...
一个人的时候, 房间有点冷...
心跳有点失控, 你留下的伤口, 怎么一直痛...
是谁在故意碰撞...
我们曾经拥抱在最脆弱的时候...
现在你说大哭一场后就有笑容...
我的爱, 给了你 怎么收...
想忘了啊... 爱过了怎么能够... 爱过了怎么能够...
怎么能够...
~LONER~
爱到不可思议....
但是决定一段时间冷静下来...
我要让他得到快乐... 天天都快了....
我只想说, 我们都需要一个藉口...
藉口里有我和他的寂寞...
只要这样... 就足够...
不能分辨错对是非, 没有谁进谁该退...
不能接受停你告别, 微笑装作停不见....
闭上眼就能假装天黑....
只能闭上眼假装天黑....
一个醒来的午后, 眼睛有点肿, 天空有点迷蒙...
我是否在梦中, 脑袋有点空, 手脚不想移动...
雨后一道彩虹, 人们开始走, 我该不该停留...
这世界一直转动....
你离开以后... 忘了什么时候...
不想哭, 眼泪在眼中... 我想笑, 嘴角却不动...
你的眼, 突然间 看不懂...
不想哭, 找不到理由... 我想笑, 心却一直在痛...
你的脸 让空气 变沉重...
想忘了啊... ... 爱过了... 怎么能够...
一个人的时候, 房间有点冷...
心跳有点失控, 你留下的伤口, 怎么一直痛...
是谁在故意碰撞...
我们曾经拥抱在最脆弱的时候...
现在你说大哭一场后就有笑容...
我的爱, 给了你 怎么收...
想忘了啊... 爱过了怎么能够... 爱过了怎么能够...
怎么能够...
~LONER~
3:48 PM
记得那一天, 窗外细雨绵绵...
你捧着我的脸,轻轻说了再见...
你说我不可以掉眼泪, 你要记住我最美的笑脸...
但我却在你转身的那一刻, 看见了你, 红了双眼...
我爱你, 我真的想永远好好爱你...
是我叛逆善变又任性, 一次一次伤透你的心...
我好想你, 我真的想你快不能呼吸...
我要告诉你, 对不起我爱你...
那时候, 我是真的不懂事...
你越温柔越包容, 我越放肆...
原来幸福就是这样子...
我是孩子你是我的天使...
多想天天睡在你的怀里...
这一辈子... 永不分离...
~vIaN~vIaN
bReAdMaStEr**
LoNeR...
你捧着我的脸,轻轻说了再见...
你说我不可以掉眼泪, 你要记住我最美的笑脸...
但我却在你转身的那一刻, 看见了你, 红了双眼...
我爱你, 我真的想永远好好爱你...
是我叛逆善变又任性, 一次一次伤透你的心...
我好想你, 我真的想你快不能呼吸...
我要告诉你, 对不起我爱你...
那时候, 我是真的不懂事...
你越温柔越包容, 我越放肆...
原来幸福就是这样子...
我是孩子你是我的天使...
多想天天睡在你的怀里...
这一辈子... 永不分离...
~vIaN~vIaN
bReAdMaStEr**
LoNeR...
1:08 AM
Friday, June 15, 2007
Hello! Just came back from the class chalet… I realize that 5N1 gals, The 3 gals, we share similar terrible story… we all had complicated love lives… it is just a Chalet for class gathering… brought out feelings deep inside us. We saw our past, the happy past…
~vIan~
BrEaDmAsTeR**
The LoNeR~
Silent cries in our heart… yet happy faces have to be placed on our faces… just to show that we are fine… at first… I was wondering and hoping that someone could understand how I was actually feeling…
Since entered poly life… my life had been in a mess… I had to be fake… it is really very terrible… I can’t predict what is the next thing that I will do… it is no longer me… I can’t handle a lot of things… and ever since me and Him broke up… I had been trying to grab his attention… but no matter what I do… he is getting further and further away from me… I don’t understand… if all my friends could sit down and tell me that they understand me… why can’t he?? Instead of calming me down… what he did has made everything worse…
He blamed me… complaint that I had changed… did he ever think of the reason that I would do this…? I had no choice… I couldn’t hide my feelings as well as sisi and Jing, I really can’t… I had been controlling myself… telling myself that I still can hope for tomorrow… but it is not like that… as days pass… I can’t find back the past… Life is meaningless to us now…
Yesterday, me and sisi nearly drowned in the pool… at that point of time…I felt her... I felt her and me having the same thought… we really thought of ending our life just like that… at least we can no longer think so much… but I know I can’t… I promised someone that I would treasure my life…
In our minds… everything just happened so fast… so easily… sometimes, I really wonder… why can’t we be like the other gals? To change our minds so easily, why can’t we just switch to another target… I wanna find my happiness back!
~vIan~
BrEaDmAsTeR**
The LoNeR~
3:56 PM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Trusting is telling myself and believing that for what ever you do.. you have your reasons for it... One doesn't have to change for another person.. i believe that you know what you are doing... Saying this is not trying help us to patch, but i just wanna let you know that somewhere down the road in your life.. there's still this someone who understands for your every action..
Understanding you doesn't mean that i don't feel hurt.. hope that you will not keep everything in your heart... I do feel hurt, but i dun wanna add on to your remorsefulness.. =) cheer up ba.. what's over's over... =D remember my phrase!! LEARN FROM YESTERDAY, LIVE FOR TODAY... HOPE FOR TOMORROW!! =D
Yesterday went buffet with B's sis.. she is so generous.. the buffet is about $40... omg! Thanks!! =D
LOVE.. is such a big word!! =D
Signing off:
ViAnViaN~~
BrEaDmAstEr!!**
Understanding you doesn't mean that i don't feel hurt.. hope that you will not keep everything in your heart... I do feel hurt, but i dun wanna add on to your remorsefulness.. =) cheer up ba.. what's over's over... =D remember my phrase!! LEARN FROM YESTERDAY, LIVE FOR TODAY... HOPE FOR TOMORROW!! =D
Yesterday went buffet with B's sis.. she is so generous.. the buffet is about $40... omg! Thanks!! =D
LOVE.. is such a big word!! =D
Signing off:
ViAnViaN~~
BrEaDmAstEr!!**
10:43 PM
Monday, June 11, 2007
I cant view my blog!! lolx.. dunno why.. i tink got virus! lolx.. i can only send!
Anyway.. i am now making use of my blog to reply!! well.. i have to stress that i accepted what you did becoz i believe that everyone will learn from their mistake... and i believe that you know what you had done was wrong... i understand that you wouldn't want this kind of things to happen too.. i know that you are already feeling very bad about what had happened.. why add on more to your stress... since you know what is right and what is wrong... would you still do it again?? i bet not rite?
i have been thinking and thinking.. if i were to be drunk like you... i bet i wouldn't know what i was thinking at that time too...
Even the government provides yellow ribbon to prisoners... although u (not prisoner)... i shall give you my yellow ribbon... you don't have to feel bad ler.. just know that you shouldn't repeat your mistake... understand?? =)
As for what you have written in your blog... u asked me??... lolx.. please dont suspect me... even if you were to throw me aside.. i'll still give you a yellow ribbon... =)
one more thing!! lolx... please try to quit smoking!... it is bad for health.. i dun wish you to die b4 me.. lolx.. =D
signing off:
Vian~vian~
bReAdmAsteR**
Anyway.. i am now making use of my blog to reply!! well.. i have to stress that i accepted what you did becoz i believe that everyone will learn from their mistake... and i believe that you know what you had done was wrong... i understand that you wouldn't want this kind of things to happen too.. i know that you are already feeling very bad about what had happened.. why add on more to your stress... since you know what is right and what is wrong... would you still do it again?? i bet not rite?
i have been thinking and thinking.. if i were to be drunk like you... i bet i wouldn't know what i was thinking at that time too...
Even the government provides yellow ribbon to prisoners... although u (not prisoner)... i shall give you my yellow ribbon... you don't have to feel bad ler.. just know that you shouldn't repeat your mistake... understand?? =)
As for what you have written in your blog... u asked me??... lolx.. please dont suspect me... even if you were to throw me aside.. i'll still give you a yellow ribbon... =)
one more thing!! lolx... please try to quit smoking!... it is bad for health.. i dun wish you to die b4 me.. lolx.. =D
signing off:
Vian~vian~
bReAdmAsteR**
11:57 AM
Friday, June 08, 2007
Things just happen like that.. No reason why.. questions popping up in my mind... To Love or not To Love... i realize that Love has stand a very important part of my life...
After going through these 2 years.. i finally found someone really significant in my life.. i wouldn't let anyone else replace this relationship... well... Not even Kell... although he has given me lots of care and concern.. i just dun have any feelings for him.. "kell.. i know that you might be reading this.. but i still have to tell you that i dun have any feelings other than friendship... i'm sorry.."
As for B... i Will definitely continue to wait for the day you return.. lolx.. although we might not really be able to be together in future.. lolx.. i am not asking for "4ever" lolx.. its just that i feel that there are alot of things in life that i have to treasure before i regret. Being able to find someone to love me more that i do other than my family.. i tell myself.. i really have to treasure !! =)
Hehe.. i am now at yew tee.. no choice.. house internet down.. dunno due to what reason.. come all the way so far just to be able to write this bloggie! lolx.. B... gave me back his house key... hmm.. do i really deserves it?? =) but anyway.. really thanks..
signing off:
~vian ~vian **
BrEadMasTeR**
After going through these 2 years.. i finally found someone really significant in my life.. i wouldn't let anyone else replace this relationship... well... Not even Kell... although he has given me lots of care and concern.. i just dun have any feelings for him.. "kell.. i know that you might be reading this.. but i still have to tell you that i dun have any feelings other than friendship... i'm sorry.."
As for B... i Will definitely continue to wait for the day you return.. lolx.. although we might not really be able to be together in future.. lolx.. i am not asking for "4ever" lolx.. its just that i feel that there are alot of things in life that i have to treasure before i regret. Being able to find someone to love me more that i do other than my family.. i tell myself.. i really have to treasure !! =)
Hehe.. i am now at yew tee.. no choice.. house internet down.. dunno due to what reason.. come all the way so far just to be able to write this bloggie! lolx.. B... gave me back his house key... hmm.. do i really deserves it?? =) but anyway.. really thanks..
signing off:
~vian ~vian **
BrEadMasTeR**
7:55 PM
Monday, June 04, 2007
Hello! really very very long time never write blog ler... well.. u all must be thinking why i so long ler then suddenly write blog rite? lolx.. becoz i have a very big news to share... i.. am.. back to single ler.. lolx.. very sad hor.. lolx.. may be good news maybe bad news but to me.. it is a bad news lor...
Things suddenly change.. the day b4 we broke we are still fine.. some unpleasant things happen that woke my dear's mind... he suddenly told me that he is not sure of this.. not sure of that... haix.. i also dunno la.. things just happened.. he told me that only if i had went for another relationship he will not be back..
all my friends told me that all these are excuses.. however, i still chose to believe the one i love most...
my class is having a class BBQ at east coast tml!! i hope that we will be having fun there.. bb will be going too.. hmm... galgal told me that i have to be fine in order for bb not to avoid me.. =) i will do as what mar said! =)
smile smile smile!!
studying in RP is so tiring.. everyday also very tired.. like fighting fighting like that...
we have to fight to get better results as it is daily graded lor.. hmm.. i wanna work hard..
And IF.. IF i could.. i will definitely wait.. =) wait for BB!! lolx.. that is if he is smart enough to be back in time b4 somethings are too late... =)
ok la.. dun ask y.. lolx.. anyway.. lets skip this topic... lolx.. not fun to tok about it at all!! lolx..
ganbatte vivi!! u can do it!!
for today... i will stop here... =) \
vian~vian
=) brEaDmAsTeR** muaCKZzzZz
Things suddenly change.. the day b4 we broke we are still fine.. some unpleasant things happen that woke my dear's mind... he suddenly told me that he is not sure of this.. not sure of that... haix.. i also dunno la.. things just happened.. he told me that only if i had went for another relationship he will not be back..
all my friends told me that all these are excuses.. however, i still chose to believe the one i love most...
my class is having a class BBQ at east coast tml!! i hope that we will be having fun there.. bb will be going too.. hmm... galgal told me that i have to be fine in order for bb not to avoid me.. =) i will do as what mar said! =)
smile smile smile!!
studying in RP is so tiring.. everyday also very tired.. like fighting fighting like that...
we have to fight to get better results as it is daily graded lor.. hmm.. i wanna work hard..
And IF.. IF i could.. i will definitely wait.. =) wait for BB!! lolx.. that is if he is smart enough to be back in time b4 somethings are too late... =)
ok la.. dun ask y.. lolx.. anyway.. lets skip this topic... lolx.. not fun to tok about it at all!! lolx..
ganbatte vivi!! u can do it!!
for today... i will stop here... =) \
vian~vian
=) brEaDmAsTeR** muaCKZzzZz
7:10 PM
