Friday, August 31, 2007
Went back to dunearn and then brought back alot of memories...
- still remember last time walk to school with dear and then run to the gate to not to be late... kekex...
- We group of girls always go toilet and then talked about pimples... hair... bla bla
- How we actually made some teachers very angry then they walk out of the class
- How we compared our results after each test
- The Mr lee's class where we were asked to stayed back till real late for maths peertutoring
=) all these memories just flashed through my mind when we walked around the school today...
to be able to see all those teachers, i am realy very happy! =D
Talked to "xu lao shi", saw his hand.. he hurt his hand... or i should say is broke his hand, haix... he so skinny i see le also sad... but then good to hear that he is still good =) well... saw alot other teachers and then glad that they are all very happy to see us! hehe... but Dunearn really change le... alot new teachers whom we don't know and some teachers also forget us le...
I hope that i would be able to go back every year! hehe... i really miss those days...
After that, we went to block 413 coffeeshop... miss the food there too.. remember last time we always like to eat there before our peer tutoring... but too bad... after awhile then dear have to leave for the polyforum and then all my other friends they have other activities, so i went HOME! (so sian)
Took a nap when i reach home and woke up at around 7 when dear called me... he seems very angry and disappointed about what happen at the poly forum... haix..i feel sad to see him like this, but i feel that some of his friends are also too much... how can they do such a thing... to throw his things in the bin without asking and treated it as a prank?? haix.. if i were there.. i woud definitly not allow that person to do that de... =( it is just too bad that i wasn't there... anyway... i am glad that dear did not loose his temper... if not he would have just punched him.. =) so proud of him! kekex...
Just got some photos on dear's chalet... hehe.. i shall post some =)
ENJOY!!
Dear BBQing! haha.. one man show! look!
Dear's class mate! Fiona Ivy Roslina and siying! hehe
Opps.. didn't know someone is taking picture.. with me and dear at the corner! hehex
- still remember last time walk to school with dear and then run to the gate to not to be late... kekex...
- We group of girls always go toilet and then talked about pimples... hair... bla bla
- How we actually made some teachers very angry then they walk out of the class
- How we compared our results after each test
- The Mr lee's class where we were asked to stayed back till real late for maths peertutoring
=) all these memories just flashed through my mind when we walked around the school today...
to be able to see all those teachers, i am realy very happy! =D
Talked to "xu lao shi", saw his hand.. he hurt his hand... or i should say is broke his hand, haix... he so skinny i see le also sad... but then good to hear that he is still good =) well... saw alot other teachers and then glad that they are all very happy to see us! hehe... but Dunearn really change le... alot new teachers whom we don't know and some teachers also forget us le...
I hope that i would be able to go back every year! hehe... i really miss those days...
After that, we went to block 413 coffeeshop... miss the food there too.. remember last time we always like to eat there before our peer tutoring... but too bad... after awhile then dear have to leave for the polyforum and then all my other friends they have other activities, so i went HOME! (so sian)
Took a nap when i reach home and woke up at around 7 when dear called me... he seems very angry and disappointed about what happen at the poly forum... haix..i feel sad to see him like this, but i feel that some of his friends are also too much... how can they do such a thing... to throw his things in the bin without asking and treated it as a prank?? haix.. if i were there.. i woud definitly not allow that person to do that de... =( it is just too bad that i wasn't there... anyway... i am glad that dear did not loose his temper... if not he would have just punched him.. =) so proud of him! kekex...
Just got some photos on dear's chalet... hehe.. i shall post some =)
ENJOY!!
Sharon and me with my stupid post... LOLX...
Dear BBQing! haha.. one man show! look!
Dear's class mate! Fiona Ivy Roslina and siying! hehe
Opps.. didn't know someone is taking picture.. with me and dear at the corner! hehexShall end here le o! lolx.. will tell add new pictures when i got them!! =)
Signing off:
ViAnVIan~~
BrEadmAsTeR**
10:06 PM
dear and me!!
Signing Off:
hihi... Lolx.. yesterday that post like very short hor.. lolx.. anyway.. today wanna talk about teacher's day and stuff..
Tml is teacher's day! lolx.. then alot people going back to Dunearn.. lolx.. my sister even ask me to go back to woodlands pri! omg... but i say dun wan.. becoz no memories there... had alot of people i hate might be going back... so i tink.. no point going back since the teacher there all left le...
But i will definitely go back to Dunearn... where i have my friends, closefriends, bestfriends and hehe.. the place where i found my dear... well... i definitly have lots of memories there where the school found out about me and dear then wanted to consell me for having a bf at this age .. and bla bla.. lolx..
Then have alot of prefect meetings and camps that made me grew up.. lolx.. so fun.. i miss those days and my wonderful friends like christina... chew mui...Marilyn and those that we never contact much these days le..
WE had so much fun together... and now i have so many things to miss... poly friends and sec friends... haix...
Tml some friends not going back.. sob.... long time no meet they still dun have time... =( miss them lor... haix.. plus now i also misses dear...
TOday he ask me go his house.. but i cannot go out le.. becoz stayed out too many nights.. then he like alittle angry.. haha.. but i know becoz he miss me.. lolx.. anyway.. he slept whole day also.. luckily i never go lo.. if not he slp then i alone again.. but then..now i misses him de lor.. haix...
Signing Off:
ViAnViAn
BrEaDmAsTeR... *
Labels: misses and misses
12:44 AM
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Holidays started... i feel so sad and moody all the way... we are changing class le.. not going to meet le... so sad... i feel like crying... waawaa!! dun wanna be separated with my fellow classmates... i will miss them lots lots... =(
Just came back from chalet + chalet... hehe... after my chalet with dear... then is his class chalet... took quite alot of pictures... but i do not have them with me... haiz... you guys must be very sian... always have picture then dun have on my blog de.. lolx.. but i dun wanna flood my blog with picx.. since all my pic dear sure have de...
Now i back le.. but dear still at chalet becoz some family things happened... need to be home... but anyway.. had too many chalets too...
haix.. then now at home lor.. misses dear alot.. actually at his class chalet there i not very happy la.. becoz felt very extra and i am not close with those who stayed... then dear also cannot leave them alone and acc me ma.. and i also dun wan him to stress.. lolx.. i hope he feels me missing him can le.. lolx.. =)
I am same as other ordinary girls.. whos loves to be pampered! hehe... and only when i am with dear... i feel pampered! so hor... hehe.. misses him lots...
That day at chalet on dear's birthday... Roxy(didi's friend) and me chat chat.. lolx.. then i consult her about relationship... hehe.. then i realize.. i am still not mature enough in my love love! hehe.. hai ya.. i very lame... and tired.. so many days never slp well.. lolx..i going to bed liaoz! hehe... nite!
Signing off:
ViAnViAn~~
BrEadmAsTeR!!**
Just came back from chalet + chalet... hehe... after my chalet with dear... then is his class chalet... took quite alot of pictures... but i do not have them with me... haiz... you guys must be very sian... always have picture then dun have on my blog de.. lolx.. but i dun wanna flood my blog with picx.. since all my pic dear sure have de...
Now i back le.. but dear still at chalet becoz some family things happened... need to be home... but anyway.. had too many chalets too...
haix.. then now at home lor.. misses dear alot.. actually at his class chalet there i not very happy la.. becoz felt very extra and i am not close with those who stayed... then dear also cannot leave them alone and acc me ma.. and i also dun wan him to stress.. lolx.. i hope he feels me missing him can le.. lolx.. =)
I am same as other ordinary girls.. whos loves to be pampered! hehe... and only when i am with dear... i feel pampered! so hor... hehe.. misses him lots...
That day at chalet on dear's birthday... Roxy(didi's friend) and me chat chat.. lolx.. then i consult her about relationship... hehe.. then i realize.. i am still not mature enough in my love love! hehe.. hai ya.. i very lame... and tired.. so many days never slp well.. lolx..i going to bed liaoz! hehe... nite!
Signing off:
ViAnViAn~~
BrEadmAsTeR!!**
10:59 PM
Friday, August 24, 2007
=) dear's chalet is coming... ... he invited lots and lots of people... some are our friends... some are HIS friends.... i mean i dunno them... but then... i still hope he is happy as he is the show for that day! =) i hope that i wont be left alone... well.. even if i am.. i wont show it! lolx... cuz its his day...
Tml going to JY hse... take the NTUC card... then after that going to karine's hostel room! hehe... go look look... i'll be bringing my little cousin! hehe.. she is so cute.. love her lots... my darling! kekex...
well... just kind of bored... =) bare with me!
Tml going to JY hse... take the NTUC card... then after that going to karine's hostel room! hehe... go look look... i'll be bringing my little cousin! hehe.. she is so cute.. love her lots... my darling! kekex...
well... just kind of bored... =) bare with me!
12:17 AM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Yesterday went to dear house.. hehe skip school again... we went to bugis walk walk after lunch to meet didi... and 2 other friends.. lolx.. make new friends again... they wanted to celebrate dear's birthday... so we went to KTV! lolx..
It was a rushing day.. rushing here and there.. we walk from bugis to orchard kekex... walked pass parkmall... then dear wanted to go in and see tattoo... again* lolx... see picture onli la.. then realize too ex le.. haix.. he say he no money le...
When we reach orchard KTV already about to 7 pm le, then we sing until 11 pm... i actually very shy... dun dare sing.. cuz got new friends... then dear suddenly screamed! wa lao.. make me so paiseh... like stupid like that.... no choice... then sing lo... but then again.. the first song i really dunno how to sing..... *shan hu hai... Lolx.. i really dunno how to sing this song... somemore haven warm up yet... haix... this dear huh... must understand me more!
Then in the end me and dear sang the most lor! haix...
Then today pethatic! only got 3 people in class. haha... serves her right.. tat faci! omg... on one faci had suffer this before... *from our class
But i think she should realize that being a faci she should not ask student to go home for she do not understand what is the topic... she is a FACI! wa lao.. where got faci like that de la..
Hmm.. anyway.. shall stop here first... dear's chalet is on 26th AUG!! hehe this sunday! look forward!
Signing off:
ViAnvIaN~~
BrEaDmAsTeR**
It was a rushing day.. rushing here and there.. we walk from bugis to orchard kekex... walked pass parkmall... then dear wanted to go in and see tattoo... again* lolx... see picture onli la.. then realize too ex le.. haix.. he say he no money le...
When we reach orchard KTV already about to 7 pm le, then we sing until 11 pm... i actually very shy... dun dare sing.. cuz got new friends... then dear suddenly screamed! wa lao.. make me so paiseh... like stupid like that.... no choice... then sing lo... but then again.. the first song i really dunno how to sing..... *shan hu hai... Lolx.. i really dunno how to sing this song... somemore haven warm up yet... haix... this dear huh... must understand me more!
Then in the end me and dear sang the most lor! haix...
Then today pethatic! only got 3 people in class. haha... serves her right.. tat faci! omg... on one faci had suffer this before... *from our class
But i think she should realize that being a faci she should not ask student to go home for she do not understand what is the topic... she is a FACI! wa lao.. where got faci like that de la..
Hmm.. anyway.. shall stop here first... dear's chalet is on 26th AUG!! hehe this sunday! look forward!
Signing off:
ViAnvIaN~~
BrEaDmAsTeR**
10:14 AM
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Hehe... i am in school now and guess what... faci is takign crap again.lolx... today is enterprize and we all have this individual thing to do... so bored! haix.. then class ended up with only like about 5 people... so sad... but i know it is becoz of today's 3rd meeting presentation...
so bored in class.. haix.. this faci like to talk alot of crap... useless stuff and lame stuff too... dun understand why he wan to talk so much.. lolx.. waste time... actually can be dismiss by 3 pm... but then his 6P actually take like so long.. going to one hour le ba... haix.. last week also like that...
yesterday went to jurong with sisi... then after that sisi go off le... thanks for accompanying me ! hehe... i bought a SUNflower! lolx.. fake de la.. but big de lor... then the face of the sunflower so cute.. lolx.. u all can see it in my dear's bloggie soon, i tink he got the picture of it la... AND.. that Sunflower has a name! called "xiao se gui" hehe... in chinese lo...
Went to see movie with dear.. that movie actually not veyr nice.. just that yesterday in the theatre was so cold! freezing to death liaoz.. lolx.. den aldo got afew parts scaring de.. as in they purposely scare the people lolx.. lame...
Got afew new movies in my com.. hehe thanks friends! they dunno go where download de... then i just take here take there then got alot liao lor! hehe...
Haix... after talking so much crap... i am still waiting for my faci to finish off with his lame and craps~! haix.. when can he finish! i feel so sleepy le la.... after this going to meet dear! again... haha... his chalet coming le lor! then hope alot people will be going as! the more the merrier! hehe...
haix.. dunno what to say liaoz.. all lame things i also talk le.. well.. i go play game le! hehewhile waiting for my faci to be done wit it!
Signing off:
ViAnvIAn~~
BrEadMasTeR**
so bored in class.. haix.. this faci like to talk alot of crap... useless stuff and lame stuff too... dun understand why he wan to talk so much.. lolx.. waste time... actually can be dismiss by 3 pm... but then his 6P actually take like so long.. going to one hour le ba... haix.. last week also like that...
yesterday went to jurong with sisi... then after that sisi go off le... thanks for accompanying me ! hehe... i bought a SUNflower! lolx.. fake de la.. but big de lor... then the face of the sunflower so cute.. lolx.. u all can see it in my dear's bloggie soon, i tink he got the picture of it la... AND.. that Sunflower has a name! called "xiao se gui" hehe... in chinese lo...
Went to see movie with dear.. that movie actually not veyr nice.. just that yesterday in the theatre was so cold! freezing to death liaoz.. lolx.. den aldo got afew parts scaring de.. as in they purposely scare the people lolx.. lame...
Got afew new movies in my com.. hehe thanks friends! they dunno go where download de... then i just take here take there then got alot liao lor! hehe...
Haix... after talking so much crap... i am still waiting for my faci to finish off with his lame and craps~! haix.. when can he finish! i feel so sleepy le la.... after this going to meet dear! again... haha... his chalet coming le lor! then hope alot people will be going as! the more the merrier! hehe...
haix.. dunno what to say liaoz.. all lame things i also talk le.. well.. i go play game le! hehewhile waiting for my faci to be done wit it!
Signing off:
ViAnvIAn~~
BrEadMasTeR**
3:27 PM
Sunday, August 19, 2007
=( Feeling hungry now... at this time, 10pm! haven had my dinner yet, but i also dun have any urge for any kind of food.. lolx... maybe becoz of my soar throat and my cough that makes me dunno feel like eating what ba...
Today whole day slacking at home... went nowhere, thought of going to meet dear but my parents dun let, they say i not feeling well cannot go anywhere... haiyo! treating me like a kid again... actually wanted to go to the doctor... but then, family doctor closes at 11 AM! haix... i woke up too late for it!! =(
One more final week of school and we are off! off as in holiday, i'm sure i am going to miss my class mates alot! =( cant bare to leave dem... but then haix.. i am also very sure that alot people not going to come to class again...this time.. worse.. lesser people becoz last week... most of them already in holiday mood le... haix...
I also very look forward to the holidays... but i just dun feel like changing class.. i am damn going to miss those funny, playful, disturbing , irritating but wonderful classmates again... nevertheless, i can say that beautiful memories were built and i hope that i will feel the same when i go to other classes... haix...
Then the class chalet... although alot people from the class asked me to see about it... but i seriousy dun feel like it as i dun wan to make the separation a more miserable one... with more gatherings, more feelings will be input... =) therefore, i feel that it would be better when we gather mabe afew months later after we switch classes... =)
Well... misses dear lots too... although only 3 days never meet but like seems so long ler! kekex... hope to see him soon.. look forward to his birthday chalet!! hehe... *yawn!! *hungry too!
Tired and hungry.. =( hehe.. shall stop here first ba!
Signing off:
ViAnViAn~~
BreaDmAsTeR** miss ya!huggies
Today whole day slacking at home... went nowhere, thought of going to meet dear but my parents dun let, they say i not feeling well cannot go anywhere... haiyo! treating me like a kid again... actually wanted to go to the doctor... but then, family doctor closes at 11 AM! haix... i woke up too late for it!! =(
One more final week of school and we are off! off as in holiday, i'm sure i am going to miss my class mates alot! =( cant bare to leave dem... but then haix.. i am also very sure that alot people not going to come to class again...this time.. worse.. lesser people becoz last week... most of them already in holiday mood le... haix...
I also very look forward to the holidays... but i just dun feel like changing class.. i am damn going to miss those funny, playful, disturbing , irritating but wonderful classmates again... nevertheless, i can say that beautiful memories were built and i hope that i will feel the same when i go to other classes... haix...
Then the class chalet... although alot people from the class asked me to see about it... but i seriousy dun feel like it as i dun wan to make the separation a more miserable one... with more gatherings, more feelings will be input... =) therefore, i feel that it would be better when we gather mabe afew months later after we switch classes... =)
Well... misses dear lots too... although only 3 days never meet but like seems so long ler! kekex... hope to see him soon.. look forward to his birthday chalet!! hehe... *yawn!! *hungry too!
Tired and hungry.. =( hehe.. shall stop here first ba!
Signing off:
ViAnViAn~~
BreaDmAsTeR** miss ya!huggies
10:10 PM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Got a good news and a bad news... haiz... i shall share the good news first...
YEa! first time got A for my UT hehe for those who dont know, (UT = understanding test)... First time! although not consider as good... but then again... i am happy! =D
Next is bad news! haix... still sick! got slight fever... trrible cough and flu... voice sounds terrible!! haix... dunno what i wrong with me man... and becoz of this i have been feeling so moody! i spent my whole of yesterday sleeping at home... but until today.. still no cure... medicine also dont help... somebody must have casted a spell on me(kiddin)...
Dunno where is dear and what is he doing.. didn't hear from him since yesterday... called.. but he never returned my call... well.. he must be sleeping now.. lolx.. hope he will return my call soon... lol.... well.. shall stop here ler!
YEa! first time got A for my UT hehe for those who dont know, (UT = understanding test)... First time! although not consider as good... but then again... i am happy! =D
Next is bad news! haix... still sick! got slight fever... trrible cough and flu... voice sounds terrible!! haix... dunno what i wrong with me man... and becoz of this i have been feeling so moody! i spent my whole of yesterday sleeping at home... but until today.. still no cure... medicine also dont help... somebody must have casted a spell on me(kiddin)...
Dunno where is dear and what is he doing.. didn't hear from him since yesterday... called.. but he never returned my call... well.. he must be sleeping now.. lolx.. hope he will return my call soon... lol.... well.. shall stop here ler!
11:29 AM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Ar! sick again... just recovered not long ago... and now come back again.. this time worse.. not just flu but cough... oh no! thanks to my sister (i tink she is highly contagious)...
Today had UT! thank god it is my Last UT! and i hope i can pass my science and maths module! becoz i did my UTs for this 2 modules badly...
Went back after UT, actually wanted to go home to rest... but then dear told me he also going home.. so in the end... went to his house rest... had a very good nap! very long... *4hours ++ ....
treat dear suki sushi... although it wasn't the most expensive restuarant, but hey! thats sincereity.... hehe... then now i just woke up! deardear's still slping... he seems more tired than i am... lolx.. wanted to ask aunti along when we go suki sushi.. but then... when we go.. it's too early, she is still slping...
Anyway.. i gtg lo!wanna watch tv liaoz.. hehe ... bye!! miss me!
Today had UT! thank god it is my Last UT! and i hope i can pass my science and maths module! becoz i did my UTs for this 2 modules badly...
Went back after UT, actually wanted to go home to rest... but then dear told me he also going home.. so in the end... went to his house rest... had a very good nap! very long... *4hours ++ ....
treat dear suki sushi... although it wasn't the most expensive restuarant, but hey! thats sincereity.... hehe... then now i just woke up! deardear's still slping... he seems more tired than i am... lolx.. wanted to ask aunti along when we go suki sushi.. but then... when we go.. it's too early, she is still slping...
Anyway.. i gtg lo!wanna watch tv liaoz.. hehe ... bye!! miss me!
5:34 PM
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Hehe... finally back at home...got nagging and nagging again... i know it is 7th month... why do my parents have to emphasis on it? lolx.. they would only say that it is dangerous and would nag me home... ...
If i could be home early for this month, does that shows that i could also be home early for every month in future?? it is not that i dun wanna be home.. but seriously... it is kinda bored at home and also vexed...
Anyway, went to eat KFC today after sch... haha... thanks dear ( actually they didn't want to have that for dinner... but i long time never had KFC... so! thanks dear! ) then actually wanted to go home.. but since dear give in just now.. so i also lo... lolx.. went to jurong(his dad's office). H e need to help his dad fix the office com.. (internet got prob) hehe.. "Dear's not bad at fixing com!" (just trying to promote).
Then while waiting for his dad to knock off... we watched simpsons together! since i have it in my laptop... hehe... well it was kind of late.. and then his dad sent me home... (so nice)... sent me directly to my hse car park... hehe... next time... if dear have a car... it would be his turn! hehe...
well.. i guess i shall stop here now.. since i just got home! hehe..
Signing off:
ViAnViAn~
BreaDmAsTeR**
If i could be home early for this month, does that shows that i could also be home early for every month in future?? it is not that i dun wanna be home.. but seriously... it is kinda bored at home and also vexed...
Anyway, went to eat KFC today after sch... haha... thanks dear ( actually they didn't want to have that for dinner... but i long time never had KFC... so! thanks dear! ) then actually wanted to go home.. but since dear give in just now.. so i also lo... lolx.. went to jurong(his dad's office). H e need to help his dad fix the office com.. (internet got prob) hehe.. "Dear's not bad at fixing com!" (just trying to promote).
Then while waiting for his dad to knock off... we watched simpsons together! since i have it in my laptop... hehe... well it was kind of late.. and then his dad sent me home... (so nice)... sent me directly to my hse car park... hehe... next time... if dear have a car... it would be his turn! hehe...
well.. i guess i shall stop here now.. since i just got home! hehe..
Signing off:
ViAnViAn~
BreaDmAsTeR**
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10:38 PM
Why no body wanna tag me ne? lolx... hmm, these few days quite bored... did nothing fun, actually going to sentosa with dear last saturday but then instead i went out with my mum as he got poly forum! lolx..
got into that SAS camp which actually will help me in getting 5 NDA points.. and i feel that it is ok although i wont get DA hehe... anyway... dear's chalet is going to come soon... will be going over since 25th until 28th, come back then 29th go home.. hehe.. fully packed for that week!
Then camp in school on the 3th to 5th of sep! hehe...
i'll be visiting the florist somewhere this week... with sisi... yesterday chat with her on phone for like so long.. hehe... very long time never chat like that le... well hope can go out together soon hehe... anyway.. told munteng about my plan for the flower.. she also laughed... but she say it would be very nice too! =) then she suggest commonwealth the tea garden... i tink i might really consider that! =D
WEll.. now i am in class and i am so damn bored... it is like 3 pm and we are done with the class ppt! omg! u know what... becoz there is only 2 teams and it is a very simple topic.. lolx..
i tink i shall stop my craping hehe.... shall be back soon!.. opps! soon!
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ViAnViAn~**
BrEaDmAsTeR**
got into that SAS camp which actually will help me in getting 5 NDA points.. and i feel that it is ok although i wont get DA hehe... anyway... dear's chalet is going to come soon... will be going over since 25th until 28th, come back then 29th go home.. hehe.. fully packed for that week!
Then camp in school on the 3th to 5th of sep! hehe...
i'll be visiting the florist somewhere this week... with sisi... yesterday chat with her on phone for like so long.. hehe... very long time never chat like that le... well hope can go out together soon hehe... anyway.. told munteng about my plan for the flower.. she also laughed... but she say it would be very nice too! =) then she suggest commonwealth the tea garden... i tink i might really consider that! =D
WEll.. now i am in class and i am so damn bored... it is like 3 pm and we are done with the class ppt! omg! u know what... becoz there is only 2 teams and it is a very simple topic.. lolx..
i tink i shall stop my craping hehe.... shall be back soon!.. opps! soon!
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ViAnViAn~**
BrEaDmAsTeR**
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3:02 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007
=) mum bought me and my sis a small tiny NUNU!! which i name it guigui* in chinese... i find it so cute... it makes me happy when i am Lonely... cheers me up when i am sad...
12:37 AM
Friday, August 10, 2007
Fights and quarrels... everyday...
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I dun understand why we like to quarrel so much... well.. atleast once a day... is that the way we actually communicate?? i really don't know...
And it is always until the end of the day when i get home then i realize that i actually regretted... even though it wasn;t my fault in the first place... but the little little injury i gave him actually hurts me too... however, i just dont know how to show that i care (Act fierce)...
Today is another big quarrel... and u know what?? it is just for a dinner... dotz! KEkex.. actually when the quarrel started... feel so much like hugging him to stop everything... haiz... but i dunno y... just hard hearted... well then everything became too late... i nearly just went off out his door! lolx.. i actually wanted to leave le.. then he said if i were to leave... never return... although he is saying harsh things... he seems to be crying in his heart... lolx.. i feel la... thats y i also keep crying... he ask me why i cry i also dunno... lolx..
Then went to his grand ma hse... they treat me so good... keep helping me say him.. lolx... feel like a princess there... but ofcoz.. i know my limits...
After dinner he started again... talk about my parent's teaching manner... haiz... was kinda angry... but this time.. i kept quiet... and to my surprize.. he actually came to me this time.. =D so.. settled hehe...
All becoz of a need for speed(a computer game) we nearly broke off... phew... i said(NEARLY) lolx... but i dunno y.. i feel so wrong.. so down... i know there is something missing.. (a huggie!)
Signing off:
ViAnViAn~~
BReAdMasTeR... guilty as charged...
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I dun understand why we like to quarrel so much... well.. atleast once a day... is that the way we actually communicate?? i really don't know...
And it is always until the end of the day when i get home then i realize that i actually regretted... even though it wasn;t my fault in the first place... but the little little injury i gave him actually hurts me too... however, i just dont know how to show that i care (Act fierce)...
Today is another big quarrel... and u know what?? it is just for a dinner... dotz! KEkex.. actually when the quarrel started... feel so much like hugging him to stop everything... haiz... but i dunno y... just hard hearted... well then everything became too late... i nearly just went off out his door! lolx.. i actually wanted to leave le.. then he said if i were to leave... never return... although he is saying harsh things... he seems to be crying in his heart... lolx.. i feel la... thats y i also keep crying... he ask me why i cry i also dunno... lolx..
Then went to his grand ma hse... they treat me so good... keep helping me say him.. lolx... feel like a princess there... but ofcoz.. i know my limits...
After dinner he started again... talk about my parent's teaching manner... haiz... was kinda angry... but this time.. i kept quiet... and to my surprize.. he actually came to me this time.. =D so.. settled hehe...
All becoz of a need for speed(a computer game) we nearly broke off... phew... i said(NEARLY) lolx... but i dunno y.. i feel so wrong.. so down... i know there is something missing.. (a huggie!)
Signing off:
ViAnViAn~~
BReAdMasTeR... guilty as charged...
Labels: Feeling Down; guilty as charged
11:22 PM
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
These few days are quite normal... nothing exciting happen until today... lolx... you wont believe what happened. Me and dear aka ah ben zhai and lister went GYM at cck, on our way there in the train... was left a bag in red with giraffe cartoon pictured on it unattended.
Guess what did we do next? As expected, dear would definitely call for help... lolx... he wanted to call police although it was much more troublesome becoz if thats a prank, he will not have to pay much as compared to the 5000 bucks from calling through the train... Nevertheless, after me and lister telling him to... he press the button and called through the train... hehe...
well, this was the only thing that actually is considered as exciting as compared to the deadly life these few days...
Tml is national day! yea! holiday again! but as we are in poly! only 1 day off! sian lor... then me and munteng they all wish that we could self declare holiday for ourselves on friday... see how la.. maybe also not going to school... although it is cognitive, one of my favorite lesson... i still tinks that resting is much more important.. hehe as i still have leaves to claim! one more day to claim! lolx...
Today had computing the module! (VB) again! lolx.. sian la.. but then... i smoked through quite alot today as i have RIZAL in my team who is quite familier with VB! lolx... and he could basically explain what i dun understand to me clearly! Thanks RIZAL if u did read my blog! hehe...
Well... these few days also... misses deardear alot... also dunno how to tell mum and dad that me and him ok le... hai ya...
Hehe.. now i shall self declare off! as i will be going to bed soon! hehe!
Signing off:
ViAnVian~~
BrEaDmAsTeR... ** ABZ=D
Guess what did we do next? As expected, dear would definitely call for help... lolx... he wanted to call police although it was much more troublesome becoz if thats a prank, he will not have to pay much as compared to the 5000 bucks from calling through the train... Nevertheless, after me and lister telling him to... he press the button and called through the train... hehe...
well, this was the only thing that actually is considered as exciting as compared to the deadly life these few days...
Tml is national day! yea! holiday again! but as we are in poly! only 1 day off! sian lor... then me and munteng they all wish that we could self declare holiday for ourselves on friday... see how la.. maybe also not going to school... although it is cognitive, one of my favorite lesson... i still tinks that resting is much more important.. hehe as i still have leaves to claim! one more day to claim! lolx...
Today had computing the module! (VB) again! lolx.. sian la.. but then... i smoked through quite alot today as i have RIZAL in my team who is quite familier with VB! lolx... and he could basically explain what i dun understand to me clearly! Thanks RIZAL if u did read my blog! hehe...
Well... these few days also... misses deardear alot... also dunno how to tell mum and dad that me and him ok le... hai ya...
Hehe.. now i shall self declare off! as i will be going to bed soon! hehe!
Signing off:
ViAnVian~~
BrEaDmAsTeR... ** ABZ=D
Labels: Normal... =D
11:14 PM
Sunday, August 05, 2007
ok la.. haiyo... This DeArDeAr ar... lolx.. SenSiTive... kekex... then i shall take back my previous post... lolx.. anyway... i was refering mostly to my family members la..!
Anyway... i am so irritated by Rizwan and his EX Gf... WTH... what has everything got to do with her anyway.. being jealous for nothing.... please la.. i already have got a darling and i love him lots.. so whats there for you to worry about huh?... omg...
And Rizwan also dun have a good taste... sometimes i really dun understand why he is so possessive?? I thought that we are just friends now... yet he happily messaging me saying love me lots... haix...
Please... and i am still very pissed of with that irritating highly educated girl... haha.. to those who dun know about this.. she looked down on NA student and said that she is a highly educated person filled with knowledge...
And now... i just hope that i would be left alone from that irritating girl... who doesn't know what is invading people's privacy...
Anyway... i am so irritated by Rizwan and his EX Gf... WTH... what has everything got to do with her anyway.. being jealous for nothing.... please la.. i already have got a darling and i love him lots.. so whats there for you to worry about huh?... omg...
And Rizwan also dun have a good taste... sometimes i really dun understand why he is so possessive?? I thought that we are just friends now... yet he happily messaging me saying love me lots... haix...
Please... and i am still very pissed of with that irritating highly educated girl... haha.. to those who dun know about this.. she looked down on NA student and said that she is a highly educated person filled with knowledge...
And now... i just hope that i would be left alone from that irritating girl... who doesn't know what is invading people's privacy...
7:57 PM
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Just changed some features of my blog... and also changed the song! lolx.. although this song like doesn't really fit into this blog.. but then... i just like this song.. haha.. so i dun really care! =D
Anyway... life in my"home" is miserable!! haix... i know not only i feel it this way... generally my whole family don't feel right! i myself couldn't figure out what is the problem here!! i wan to get away from this place!
What is wrong for not having dinner!!?? if other people can, i dun understand y my family can't! But my parent's are pampering my sibling's too much! and i dun understand the reason for them to do that.. as i knew that it is not the right way for my siblings being educated. they will grow up to be a coward!
I dun even feel like going home when i have hear scoldings, and see bitter faces everyday! my family members... from young to old.. they just like banging on the door so much!... if one day i could i will leave!!
As for my love life... i also dunno whether it is considered as successful or not... as sometimes i dun feel like the past anymore... before we patched... he said that for this relationship... he is seriously going to put his heart into it... but if time shows that we are not suitable.. then we will have to walk towards our own ways and destiny...
However, the feelings i had hasn't been dropping.. lolx.. =D but poly life had been stressful... we all will have lesser time together... =(
Anyway... i will still try my best... as DearDear... i will only have one.. =D
Anyway... life in my"home" is miserable!! haix... i know not only i feel it this way... generally my whole family don't feel right! i myself couldn't figure out what is the problem here!! i wan to get away from this place!
What is wrong for not having dinner!!?? if other people can, i dun understand y my family can't! But my parent's are pampering my sibling's too much! and i dun understand the reason for them to do that.. as i knew that it is not the right way for my siblings being educated. they will grow up to be a coward!
I dun even feel like going home when i have hear scoldings, and see bitter faces everyday! my family members... from young to old.. they just like banging on the door so much!... if one day i could i will leave!!
As for my love life... i also dunno whether it is considered as successful or not... as sometimes i dun feel like the past anymore... before we patched... he said that for this relationship... he is seriously going to put his heart into it... but if time shows that we are not suitable.. then we will have to walk towards our own ways and destiny...
However, the feelings i had hasn't been dropping.. lolx.. =D but poly life had been stressful... we all will have lesser time together... =(
Anyway... i will still try my best... as DearDear... i will only have one.. =D
Labels: Sad... family and love
10:03 PM
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
My life is in a mess, There are problems here and there and no body knows what is the right choice...
Living In My Own World... Didn't Understand... That Anything Could Happen, When I Take A Chance... I Never Believe In... What I Couldn't See. That I Have Been Living In... A Home Without Love.... I'm So Disappointed... That This Would Ever Happen....
That Now! I Really Don't Know.. Where I Really Belong...... ... Where's My Home?? Where's my Home... A Place That I Will Be Loved And I'll Be Able To Love!... ....
If both of you didn't really want me in the first place, then y give birth to me?... And everything became my fault... i not born to be scolded and not born to be aimed & not to be Blamed! Being my parents and couldn't show me the Love that i need... There is no such parents like you...
If both of you feel that you can't show me the love equally between me and my siblings... then could you please... tell me... i can survive my own... without you... i want to Live happily! i am willing to survive myself outside... so please.. let me know... let me know that you don't love me.. and you dun need me... and please ask me to leave...
I want to be leave alone... i rather be alone... than being in this family... if everyone in the family is against me... i wouldn't mind... i rather die, than living here in the cold room...
If my sister don't know how to respect me... as the eldest... i feel that i am just an outsider...
Living In My Own World... Didn't Understand... That Anything Could Happen, When I Take A Chance... I Never Believe In... What I Couldn't See. That I Have Been Living In... A Home Without Love.... I'm So Disappointed... That This Would Ever Happen....
That Now! I Really Don't Know.. Where I Really Belong...... ... Where's My Home?? Where's my Home... A Place That I Will Be Loved And I'll Be Able To Love!... ....
If both of you didn't really want me in the first place, then y give birth to me?... And everything became my fault... i not born to be scolded and not born to be aimed & not to be Blamed! Being my parents and couldn't show me the Love that i need... There is no such parents like you...
If both of you feel that you can't show me the love equally between me and my siblings... then could you please... tell me... i can survive my own... without you... i want to Live happily! i am willing to survive myself outside... so please.. let me know... let me know that you don't love me.. and you dun need me... and please ask me to leave...
I want to be leave alone... i rather be alone... than being in this family... if everyone in the family is against me... i wouldn't mind... i rather die, than living here in the cold room...
If my sister don't know how to respect me... as the eldest... i feel that i am just an outsider...
Labels: by sibling and parents..., Disappointment
9:56 AM
