Tuesday, May 19, 2009
My sister got back her results today.
She had failed 3 subjects which is literature, Science and Geography.
And i am being penalized for her grades.
My parents screamed at me for not teaching my sister in her studies etc.
I am really feeling very stressed these days...
I really dunno what to say.... I have not enough time to enjoy myself...
Everyday, is tons of work and work to do...
Money is a big issue...
My sister's studies is another big issues.... when can i ever have time to do my own things...
I can help to teach my sister some things that she do not know...
but the thing is she never happen to ask me....
How am i suppose to know that she has questions to ask...
I have projects to do... school work to do... Money to earn...
I am not as fortunate as some other people out there...
Sometimes lying on my bed and tears rolling down unexpectedly...
I really dunno what else i can do... I.... Feel like giving up.....
I know that i have to hold on...
People tells me Life's just so bad...
however, anyone like me... studying... earning for own allowance.... needs to worry about sister's grade... blaming me for not washing things... washing toilets... blaming me for not ironing cloths... basically house hold chores for them...
I'm really tired le....
Why is it me... everything is me??? am i the only one in this family??? my parents... other than money... they seemed to throw everything to me just becoz i am the eldest...
i need to rest...
She had failed 3 subjects which is literature, Science and Geography.
And i am being penalized for her grades.
My parents screamed at me for not teaching my sister in her studies etc.
I am really feeling very stressed these days...
I really dunno what to say.... I have not enough time to enjoy myself...
Everyday, is tons of work and work to do...
Money is a big issue...
My sister's studies is another big issues.... when can i ever have time to do my own things...
I can help to teach my sister some things that she do not know...
but the thing is she never happen to ask me....
How am i suppose to know that she has questions to ask...
I have projects to do... school work to do... Money to earn...
I am not as fortunate as some other people out there...
Sometimes lying on my bed and tears rolling down unexpectedly...
I really dunno what else i can do... I.... Feel like giving up.....
I know that i have to hold on...
People tells me Life's just so bad...
however, anyone like me... studying... earning for own allowance.... needs to worry about sister's grade... blaming me for not washing things... washing toilets... blaming me for not ironing cloths... basically house hold chores for them...
I'm really tired le....
Why is it me... everything is me??? am i the only one in this family??? my parents... other than money... they seemed to throw everything to me just becoz i am the eldest...
i need to rest...
9:58 PM
Sunday, May 17, 2009
I'm still trying very hard to hold on...
Eventhough things aren't always that simple... I just feel so stressed up...
Work, Love, Studies, money.... i dunno which is even right for me...
Started to score all As in my result... however everyday seems to tiring .... UT is coming... haix... Stress more... I dunno if i will pass my first test... Even though i scored As in daily grade doesn't mean anything lor... so tired...
Maybe everyone is feeling the same stress that i am facing now... Sometimes.. i just feel like ending everything... however... i just can... cuz i have to tell my self to persevere till the end!!
JIA YOU VIVIAN!!!
I looked into the mirror... her face is getting duller each time... weaker in the sense... not much cheerfulness... no longer hyper...
I went swimming to destress these days... and so.. really became darker! haix... i really like TOFU! so easy CHAO DA! lolx...
PLS Let me regain the cheerfulness in me.. the brightness of me...
Eventhough things aren't always that simple... I just feel so stressed up...
Work, Love, Studies, money.... i dunno which is even right for me...
Started to score all As in my result... however everyday seems to tiring .... UT is coming... haix... Stress more... I dunno if i will pass my first test... Even though i scored As in daily grade doesn't mean anything lor... so tired...
Maybe everyone is feeling the same stress that i am facing now... Sometimes.. i just feel like ending everything... however... i just can... cuz i have to tell my self to persevere till the end!!
JIA YOU VIVIAN!!!
I looked into the mirror... her face is getting duller each time... weaker in the sense... not much cheerfulness... no longer hyper...
I went swimming to destress these days... and so.. really became darker! haix... i really like TOFU! so easy CHAO DA! lolx...
PLS Let me regain the cheerfulness in me.. the brightness of me...
12:00 AM
Friday, May 15, 2009
Just like how much rong rong misses E45J! i misses them too... Sometimes really thinking when the 4 of us will be able to get together again?? when will we be able to go out together take picture play and enjoy again?
Is it all the passes?
Now.. i only get to meet rong rong and chin ho during breaks....
Only get to meet genegene during FYP...
No more free times to go out together?
WE are all busy with our own stuffs, wondering when will we be able to gather tgt again??
Rong rong.. and chin ho.. thanks fot going to k box with me that day... when i'm feeling down... you all are always by my side...
Same for yu jing too... thanks alot...
I'm also sorry that had cause u guys to spent 23 bucks with me...
I hope that one day E45J can go to K BOX TGT!!!
I really miss those days last semester...
I Wish i wish... I wish for us to get back to the past ^.^
GANBATTE!!
And really thanks ppl!! loves lots...
Is it all the passes?
Now.. i only get to meet rong rong and chin ho during breaks....
Only get to meet genegene during FYP...
No more free times to go out together?
WE are all busy with our own stuffs, wondering when will we be able to gather tgt again??
Rong rong.. and chin ho.. thanks fot going to k box with me that day... when i'm feeling down... you all are always by my side...
Same for yu jing too... thanks alot...
I'm also sorry that had cause u guys to spent 23 bucks with me...
I hope that one day E45J can go to K BOX TGT!!!
I really miss those days last semester...
I Wish i wish... I wish for us to get back to the past ^.^
GANBATTE!!
And really thanks ppl!! loves lots...
5:18 PM
