Thursday, May 27, 2010
Sometimes i really wish that i wasn't born the eldest, My life haven't been very good ever since i start to be able to realize what i was doing? From the day i know how to do many things myself, I had to triple the things i do. Am i not a human too?
I know i can be considered as a very fortunate kid since young as i had many loved ones around me to shover me with care and concern. Nevertheless, i'm still not very happy about the way i am living in.
Maybe i'm just not satisfied with many things that are happening at home. I am not sure since when, i started to realize i am becoming the worker of this home. Then i realize i hate to stay at home, it doesn't really matter whether i use to have a maid or not, am i not doing things myself?
Often, i would start to think of reasons for me to stay out late, just because i do not wan to stay home with her alone. I dun hate her, but me, to me, a home - isn't it a place for me to feel relaxed and a place i wanna be at?
Why do i feel so stressed to go home? To do the everything that only me and i had to do.
My dad will say:"she's recovering from the minor operation" so she will be resting at home, and i have to do everything.
That's okay to me, definitely okay.
I could confidently say, even if she is not on Medical leave, she is home, she never does anything... Not at all... other than shouting, screaming, complaining, what else?
I asked myself, when was the last time i ever tasted my mum's cooking? There is a blank to my questions because i don't even remember when...
I ... I love my home, I love my nest... but just realizing i love it more when she is not at home...
I hate it when i hear orders, especially from her... Why can't i be treated like an adult at home? don't i know when i need to wash and clean things?
If she just can't be satisfied to what i am doing, then why not do herself? Make a cup of tea! and she asked me to make for her when i am busy with other chores...and complain not enough sweet and such... where's her hands and legs???
I'm really tired tired and tired of all these... She is squeezing me dry!
Haix... okay.
I'm getting more and more agitated now...
I shall stop here...
I know i can be considered as a very fortunate kid since young as i had many loved ones around me to shover me with care and concern. Nevertheless, i'm still not very happy about the way i am living in.
Maybe i'm just not satisfied with many things that are happening at home. I am not sure since when, i started to realize i am becoming the worker of this home. Then i realize i hate to stay at home, it doesn't really matter whether i use to have a maid or not, am i not doing things myself?
Often, i would start to think of reasons for me to stay out late, just because i do not wan to stay home with her alone. I dun hate her, but me, to me, a home - isn't it a place for me to feel relaxed and a place i wanna be at?
Why do i feel so stressed to go home? To do the everything that only me and i had to do.
My dad will say:"she's recovering from the minor operation" so she will be resting at home, and i have to do everything.
That's okay to me, definitely okay.
I could confidently say, even if she is not on Medical leave, she is home, she never does anything... Not at all... other than shouting, screaming, complaining, what else?
I asked myself, when was the last time i ever tasted my mum's cooking? There is a blank to my questions because i don't even remember when...
I ... I love my home, I love my nest... but just realizing i love it more when she is not at home...
I hate it when i hear orders, especially from her... Why can't i be treated like an adult at home? don't i know when i need to wash and clean things?
If she just can't be satisfied to what i am doing, then why not do herself? Make a cup of tea! and she asked me to make for her when i am busy with other chores...and complain not enough sweet and such... where's her hands and legs???
I'm really tired tired and tired of all these... She is squeezing me dry!
Haix... okay.
I'm getting more and more agitated now...
I shall stop here...
12:17 AM
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Things moved on...
People Changes...
And
I realize sometimes once a mistake is done nothing can amend it...
As times goes by... the hole is dug deeper and deeper...
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.
.
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To me, There are certain things that i can never forget...
Well... nt the bad ones...
MEMORIES are precious... our Brain's space are limited...
THUS!....
I often keep the good memories... Although certain hurtful truth are hidden inside...
that can never be washed away...
People Changes...
And
I realize sometimes once a mistake is done nothing can amend it...
As times goes by... the hole is dug deeper and deeper...
.
.
.
.
.
To me, There are certain things that i can never forget...
Well... nt the bad ones...
MEMORIES are precious... our Brain's space are limited...
THUS!....
I often keep the good memories... Although certain hurtful truth are hidden inside...
that can never be washed away...
Labels: Thoughts
1:45 AM
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Its so nice to have graduated and its time for me to start on another journey of my life...
Although i am quite happy that i have graduated... but still didn't manage to graduate with some friends... kind of sad for them...
Its time for me to work hard and study hard...
Diploma in early childhood education ... Then degree...
Then hopefully i can open my own childcare? hee hee...
Mummy is going for an operation this thursday... i suppose its a small operation ba...
Still hopes she will get well soon...
Now... no work... everyday is hse work hse work... lolx...
Tired lo... endless... lolx...
12:11 AM
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Gathering on 8 may =) Although its just a dinner with u all... i will definitely miss all of us!
4:59 PM
Sunday, May 02, 2010
Lolx... so many people celebrating 21st birthday This year =) Really wishes them a happy birthday =D
Came back from chalet today and went for Korean lesson... lolx... Anyong hasae yo!! lolx...
Then had durian again !! whoohoo!! yummy!
But my home... always conflicts... Zzz... sianz...
All thanks to my sister... ZZZ
Came back from chalet today and went for Korean lesson... lolx... Anyong hasae yo!! lolx...
Then had durian again !! whoohoo!! yummy!
But my home... always conflicts... Zzz... sianz...
All thanks to my sister... ZZZ
10:53 PM
