Monday, March 14, 2011
>.< I'm feeling so down these days... just do not know what to do and what i should do...
at every stage of life, there is always something i cannot settle... haix... there are certain things that it is just pressuring me and i do not know why... sometimes, i just feel like leaving this world so that troubles can be freed from me... ... ... *i know i'm just talking rubbish*
Silently i cried, knowing that there is nothing i can do... i'm always trying my best to put things into place... where i feel they should belong... but i just never get things right...
at certain point of time when i feel that i have finally made it, something's bound to be there to destroy my happiness...
There is always Fear in me... Fear of doing the wrong things, making the wrong decision... Fear of not being able to put in my best... but can anyone understands me???
i feel that i have been living throughout my life... looking forward to a brighter future... Everyone have their own dream, and yes i have mine too...and every step of me walking forward i know i am moving towards my dream... but i just felt so demoralize when i hear things like i am not putting in enough effort...
Maybe in life, there should be things we ought to give up some days....... i dunno how to say, and what to say...
* you may say i have a choice... but you always leave me with no choice...
Sometimes, i just wish i was never here... pls bring me away... so somewhere i finally can relax a little and feel happy at least...
at every stage of life, there is always something i cannot settle... haix... there are certain things that it is just pressuring me and i do not know why... sometimes, i just feel like leaving this world so that troubles can be freed from me... ... ... *i know i'm just talking rubbish*
Silently i cried, knowing that there is nothing i can do... i'm always trying my best to put things into place... where i feel they should belong... but i just never get things right...at certain point of time when i feel that i have finally made it, something's bound to be there to destroy my happiness...
There is always Fear in me... Fear of doing the wrong things, making the wrong decision... Fear of not being able to put in my best... but can anyone understands me???
i feel that i have been living throughout my life... looking forward to a brighter future... Everyone have their own dream, and yes i have mine too...and every step of me walking forward i know i am moving towards my dream... but i just felt so demoralize when i hear things like i am not putting in enough effort...
Maybe in life, there should be things we ought to give up some days....... i dunno how to say, and what to say...
* you may say i have a choice... but you always leave me with no choice...
Sometimes, i just wish i was never here... pls bring me away... so somewhere i finally can relax a little and feel happy at least...
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