Sunday, January 13, 2008
As days go on...
I started to have no mood for everything... and everything seems to bring me to think of him... but then... i always calm myself down telling myself that this is reality... no matter how my parents encourage me to go find him... express my love again... i tink... it isn't the right time ba...
everything came too late... i guess... and i tink i am the only girl who will know what kind of girl he wants... so... i will try to be... and i believe i will succeed!
maybe after afew years down the road after he had enjoyed enough... he might come back for me... becoz... he still don't wanna settle with one yet...
dreamt of him last night... although i know it is a dream... it is so real... "holding hands walking down bugis..." such a simple dream... but thats so nice... ^^ if only that could happen again...
Tml i going to meet sisi swim swim... i really wanna swim... to do everything... i just wanna fill my mind up... i tink...
all those precious moments we spent together, i will remember for the rest of my life... just becoz its you... i'm so happy, my mum actually tell me to go for my love... so.. i have decided to wait... my mum says... as long as i have patience, no matter how harsh he treats me... as long as i am confident... i will... succeed...
tears roll down my cheek everynight... becoz when i realize my parents accepted us... its too late... in the coming holiday... actually planned to spent time together with him... however, things changes... so... plannings cancelled.
In the past... i knew this day would come... so... everytime when i have chance... i will try to describe his face... look at him.... even when he ask me what am i looking... i will just tell him i am looking lo... actually trying remember his face... so that oneday... like today... i could remember his face even when i close my eyes...
i've learnt alot from him... now.... nolonger the weakling girl... who fears of everything... now.. i face everything... just like how i have to face this reality... wonderful things are surpose to be in dreams... not reality... they eventually have to go back to dreams...
All i know within me now... is... i really really misses that him alot... alot...
If he could read my blog before tml's end of school... i really hope that he will just come to the pool tml... i just wish that i could look at him once more... only if this is not a dream... cuz now.. i realize that even if i kept a wish on a star... it just wont come true... where's the fate that brought us together... Mr fate... please complete your job... please... please... please...
I started to have no mood for everything... and everything seems to bring me to think of him... but then... i always calm myself down telling myself that this is reality... no matter how my parents encourage me to go find him... express my love again... i tink... it isn't the right time ba...
everything came too late... i guess... and i tink i am the only girl who will know what kind of girl he wants... so... i will try to be... and i believe i will succeed!
maybe after afew years down the road after he had enjoyed enough... he might come back for me... becoz... he still don't wanna settle with one yet...
dreamt of him last night... although i know it is a dream... it is so real... "holding hands walking down bugis..." such a simple dream... but thats so nice... ^^ if only that could happen again...
Tml i going to meet sisi swim swim... i really wanna swim... to do everything... i just wanna fill my mind up... i tink...
all those precious moments we spent together, i will remember for the rest of my life... just becoz its you... i'm so happy, my mum actually tell me to go for my love... so.. i have decided to wait... my mum says... as long as i have patience, no matter how harsh he treats me... as long as i am confident... i will... succeed...
tears roll down my cheek everynight... becoz when i realize my parents accepted us... its too late... in the coming holiday... actually planned to spent time together with him... however, things changes... so... plannings cancelled.
In the past... i knew this day would come... so... everytime when i have chance... i will try to describe his face... look at him.... even when he ask me what am i looking... i will just tell him i am looking lo... actually trying remember his face... so that oneday... like today... i could remember his face even when i close my eyes...
i've learnt alot from him... now.... nolonger the weakling girl... who fears of everything... now.. i face everything... just like how i have to face this reality... wonderful things are surpose to be in dreams... not reality... they eventually have to go back to dreams...
All i know within me now... is... i really really misses that him alot... alot...
If he could read my blog before tml's end of school... i really hope that he will just come to the pool tml... i just wish that i could look at him once more... only if this is not a dream... cuz now.. i realize that even if i kept a wish on a star... it just wont come true... where's the fate that brought us together... Mr fate... please complete your job... please... please... please...
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