Friday, April 16, 2010
Probably its time for me to let go...
Bf says: 没有永远的朋友也没有永远的敌人
He says if i tell myself not to regard them as so close probably i won't feel so upset...
Maybe he is right... but i need time then...
Eventhough there were unhappiness between... nvr once though it would end up like this...
Today my sister is sick... We went to buy my cousin's bd gift...
Then my sister tell me :" Da jie, should i buy pressie for my friend's bd?" I ask her :"How close are you to them?"
She answered: "Ok Ok lor..."
Then she asked me :"How about me"
without hesitation i answered :" Normally i would only buy and celebrate bds for my close ones" "Such as rong ar, si ar, jing ar etc lor"
Then i suddenly went silent...
feeling sad and down... i tell myself ever since secondary school.... i always regard myself as close to them but they never say ar...
So is i one side thinking only... and i realise... all the neoprints we had taken from the past are really gonna be memories...
Will those scenes ever appear again?
I guess they wouldn't ba...
But why me??
Just because i am straight forward?
Just because i took the initiative to spoke up?
Just because i am the one saying those things?
And its just me... it always has to be me...
Whenever there are unhappiness... i am always the bad person...
Just becoz my habit is to talk...
I guess... this would be the last time i'm tearing becoz of them...
PPL might say its nt worth it... people might tell me to forget about them...
But i'll just tear this once more...
Honestly, i've never felt so uneasy due to friendship before... i can't help but to think of it...
look at the mirror... i asked: " when was the times you were really happy?"
P.S : smiles means i'm happy? 你不是真正快乐...
Bf says: 没有永远的朋友也没有永远的敌人
He says if i tell myself not to regard them as so close probably i won't feel so upset...
Maybe he is right... but i need time then...
Eventhough there were unhappiness between... nvr once though it would end up like this...
Today my sister is sick... We went to buy my cousin's bd gift...
Then my sister tell me :" Da jie, should i buy pressie for my friend's bd?" I ask her :"How close are you to them?"
She answered: "Ok Ok lor..."
Then she asked me :"How about me"
without hesitation i answered :" Normally i would only buy and celebrate bds for my close ones" "Such as rong ar, si ar, jing ar etc lor"
Then i suddenly went silent...
feeling sad and down... i tell myself ever since secondary school.... i always regard myself as close to them but they never say ar...
So is i one side thinking only... and i realise... all the neoprints we had taken from the past are really gonna be memories...
Will those scenes ever appear again?
I guess they wouldn't ba...
But why me??
Just because i am straight forward?
Just because i took the initiative to spoke up?
Just because i am the one saying those things?
And its just me... it always has to be me...
Whenever there are unhappiness... i am always the bad person...
Just becoz my habit is to talk...
I guess... this would be the last time i'm tearing becoz of them...
PPL might say its nt worth it... people might tell me to forget about them...
But i'll just tear this once more...
Honestly, i've never felt so uneasy due to friendship before... i can't help but to think of it...
look at the mirror... i asked: " when was the times you were really happy?"
P.S : smiles means i'm happy? 你不是真正快乐...
11:40 PM
